Hallelujah!
We heard the words directly from the oncologist himself, no chemo!
Praise the Lord!
Brock is a cancer survivor! What wonderful words!
The oncologist said, "You are a lucky guy." Brock replied, "I am blessed."
It's been 5 weeks today since the surgery. A very long wait for the final answer to our (and your) prayers.
We realize this illness could very, very easily have had a different outcome. We don't know why God blessed us with this clean bill of health. I don't think he's finished with Brock yet. Leading up to the surgery, I just felt, deep within me, that it wasn't Brock's time to go. Not to say I wasn't scared out of my wits.
One thing I have learned from this traumatic experience. Don't be afraid to die as long as you are right with the Lord. In watching Brock's attitude and the peace that came over him, I really believe God makes everything alright. Further evidence of this occurred on April 8 when my step-mother, sweet Betty died. I watched her take her last breath and although it was heart wrenching to watch, she was at peace. I do think dying is worse for those left behind.
Thanks to everyone for the prayers, concern, cards, flowers, letters, gifts and most of all your friendship.
This is my final blog. I hope you have enjoyed reading about our journey as much as I have enjoyed writing.
Feel free to call anytime if you'd like to check on Brock.
Side note to my sister, Paula, "time to publish".
Brock and I close singing.....
Our God is an AWESOME God!
With love always,
Chris
Thursday, May 29, 2008
Wednesday, May 28, 2008
Visit to the Surgeon May 28
Hello,
I've been trying to find the time to write because I know there are a few of you that are waiting to hear about our visit to the surgeon today.
It went very well. The surgeon was smiling again. Mostly he is interested in what Brock is eating, how much and if it's coming out the other end regularly. No problem there. He can't eat very much at a time, but he's tried just about every food and hasn't had any ill effects. He started drinking Ensure again because his weight is down to 214. He really doesn't want to get below 200, but even then it would be ok. His appetite does seem to be increasing. He is thinking and talking about food more often (like the old Brock).
The doctor said Brock can start doing whatever he feels he can do. To start slow and not over do. Brock will be returning to work on June 23. That will be exactly 2 months that he'll be off work. That's pretty good. The doctor had originally said he could be off work 11 to 12 weeks.
We did find out something new. Brock will be on an acid reducer for the rest of his life. This surgery made him prone to ulcers in that area of the body. The surgeon hadn't told us that. The way we found out was that Brock has been having breast pain with swelling. It's been bothering him pretty severly over the last couple of weeks. At times he said it feels like he's being pinched. We originally thought it was a nerve. When we told the surgeon about it, he knew exactly what it was. It was the pepcid that he's been taking since the surgery. It is a side effect of this medication. So he switched Brock to a different one and said it will take a few weeks for the pain to lessen.
The surgeon doesn't have to see Brock again for 3 months.
As time goes on, we reflect back how God had comforted us throughout this whole ordeal. It should be a comfort to anyone who reads this that if you are ever in a situation like we have been in, just know that God will be there for you too. The result will be the right result and it will happen in God's timing.
Tomorrow is our last scheduled doctor appointment. The oncologist. We are sure hoping we will be breathing that sigh of relief that we've been waiting for. I will share the results with you tomorrow at about this time.
Our God is an AWESOME God!
That becomes more apparent with every passing day.
Love to all,
Chris
I've been trying to find the time to write because I know there are a few of you that are waiting to hear about our visit to the surgeon today.
It went very well. The surgeon was smiling again. Mostly he is interested in what Brock is eating, how much and if it's coming out the other end regularly. No problem there. He can't eat very much at a time, but he's tried just about every food and hasn't had any ill effects. He started drinking Ensure again because his weight is down to 214. He really doesn't want to get below 200, but even then it would be ok. His appetite does seem to be increasing. He is thinking and talking about food more often (like the old Brock).
The doctor said Brock can start doing whatever he feels he can do. To start slow and not over do. Brock will be returning to work on June 23. That will be exactly 2 months that he'll be off work. That's pretty good. The doctor had originally said he could be off work 11 to 12 weeks.
We did find out something new. Brock will be on an acid reducer for the rest of his life. This surgery made him prone to ulcers in that area of the body. The surgeon hadn't told us that. The way we found out was that Brock has been having breast pain with swelling. It's been bothering him pretty severly over the last couple of weeks. At times he said it feels like he's being pinched. We originally thought it was a nerve. When we told the surgeon about it, he knew exactly what it was. It was the pepcid that he's been taking since the surgery. It is a side effect of this medication. So he switched Brock to a different one and said it will take a few weeks for the pain to lessen.
The surgeon doesn't have to see Brock again for 3 months.
As time goes on, we reflect back how God had comforted us throughout this whole ordeal. It should be a comfort to anyone who reads this that if you are ever in a situation like we have been in, just know that God will be there for you too. The result will be the right result and it will happen in God's timing.
Tomorrow is our last scheduled doctor appointment. The oncologist. We are sure hoping we will be breathing that sigh of relief that we've been waiting for. I will share the results with you tomorrow at about this time.
Our God is an AWESOME God!
That becomes more apparent with every passing day.
Love to all,
Chris
Monday, May 26, 2008
A good holiday weekend May 26
Hello to anyone that might be checking up on Brock.
It's been awhile since I've checked in with you. I hope everyone had a wonderful holiday weekend. It's very important to Brock and I to remember those that made the ultimate sacrifice for our country from Valley Forge to Bagdad.. They died in the name of liberty. We have been to the Tomb of the Unknown Soldier at Arlington Cemetery. What a place. You will come away from there a better American.
At this point in recovery, about 4 and 1/2 weeks, Brock is still improving. He is good for about 3 to 4 hours. Then he is down for a nap or a rest for 1 to 2 hours. I can see it in his face before he even knows it himself. He has the desire to do more things, which is probably a good sign. I know he hates to watch me mow the lawn or do any of the things that are "his" jobs. Being with him all the time, I'm not seeing the changes like others that don't see him as often. Our daughter and son-in-law were over to do a few things around the yard and made the comment that he's doing fantastic and they can really notice changes. I was really glad to hear that. Our son-in-law asked if we are tired of each other yet. We haven't been apart except for brief moments and it's been fabulous! Good thing we really, really like each other. :)
We had an interesting thing happen on Thursday morning at 4 A.M. Brock woke me up to report that his feeding tube fell out. That was scary. We didn't know what to do. Many things that happen in the middle of the night seem like a crisis, when in reality, if it was the middle of the afternoon it wouldn't be any big deal. We didn't know whether go to the hospital, call the doctor on call or what. We talked and thought it out and decided to wait till 8 A.M. when the office opened. We remembered at our last appointment, the surgeon saying he likes to wait 4 weeks to take it out. It had been exactly 4 weeks to the day. Also the home nurse had told Brock that he could just pull it out himself, that it wouldn't be a problem. There was a lot more of it inside his body then we thought. The whole tube was 16 inches long, 11 of it inside his body. It's so bizarre.
When Brock got ahold of the doctors office at 8:00 and told the nurse what happened, she said,"oh,oh". Then he explained he'd had it in 4 weeks and not using it. She said not to worry about it. So we didn't. The hole started closing immediately and we just covered it with gauze. It's all healed up now. The body is God's miracle. Perfect design.
We had another surprise on Friday late afternoon. The radiologist that we saw the week before called us at home. We are just so amazed about these doctors calling at home! He had told us that he would follow through with the surgeon and the oncologist. He and Brock had a really good talk. He said the 3 doctors had met and all agree that the cancer was caught extremely early and that surgery was the treatment. We've been smiling ever since we heard that. We will breathe the sigh of relief after we see the oncologist on Thursday this week and hear it out of his mouth.
The last thing I would like to share with you is something I am just beginning to realize. Brock does not remember very much about his hospital stay. I'm sure glad my dad was with us a lot because I need a witness to prove some of the strange things that went on. Most of them seem funny now. Like Brock just getting up thinking he's going to take a walk and barely giving me time to unplug 3 things from the wall, cover up his behind and gather all the tubes and wires to take along with us. Sometimes I think the Lord protects us by wiping bad things from our memory.
Well, it's time once again for Andy and Opie (The Andy Griffith Show).
Have a successful and healthy week. I will write again, hopefully on Wed. after our visit to the surgeon. We have lots of questions for him.
Thanks for being there. Brock and I appreciate you.
Our God is an AWESOME God!!
Love,
Chris
It's been awhile since I've checked in with you. I hope everyone had a wonderful holiday weekend. It's very important to Brock and I to remember those that made the ultimate sacrifice for our country from Valley Forge to Bagdad.. They died in the name of liberty. We have been to the Tomb of the Unknown Soldier at Arlington Cemetery. What a place. You will come away from there a better American.
At this point in recovery, about 4 and 1/2 weeks, Brock is still improving. He is good for about 3 to 4 hours. Then he is down for a nap or a rest for 1 to 2 hours. I can see it in his face before he even knows it himself. He has the desire to do more things, which is probably a good sign. I know he hates to watch me mow the lawn or do any of the things that are "his" jobs. Being with him all the time, I'm not seeing the changes like others that don't see him as often. Our daughter and son-in-law were over to do a few things around the yard and made the comment that he's doing fantastic and they can really notice changes. I was really glad to hear that. Our son-in-law asked if we are tired of each other yet. We haven't been apart except for brief moments and it's been fabulous! Good thing we really, really like each other. :)
We had an interesting thing happen on Thursday morning at 4 A.M. Brock woke me up to report that his feeding tube fell out. That was scary. We didn't know what to do. Many things that happen in the middle of the night seem like a crisis, when in reality, if it was the middle of the afternoon it wouldn't be any big deal. We didn't know whether go to the hospital, call the doctor on call or what. We talked and thought it out and decided to wait till 8 A.M. when the office opened. We remembered at our last appointment, the surgeon saying he likes to wait 4 weeks to take it out. It had been exactly 4 weeks to the day. Also the home nurse had told Brock that he could just pull it out himself, that it wouldn't be a problem. There was a lot more of it inside his body then we thought. The whole tube was 16 inches long, 11 of it inside his body. It's so bizarre.
When Brock got ahold of the doctors office at 8:00 and told the nurse what happened, she said,"oh,oh". Then he explained he'd had it in 4 weeks and not using it. She said not to worry about it. So we didn't. The hole started closing immediately and we just covered it with gauze. It's all healed up now. The body is God's miracle. Perfect design.
We had another surprise on Friday late afternoon. The radiologist that we saw the week before called us at home. We are just so amazed about these doctors calling at home! He had told us that he would follow through with the surgeon and the oncologist. He and Brock had a really good talk. He said the 3 doctors had met and all agree that the cancer was caught extremely early and that surgery was the treatment. We've been smiling ever since we heard that. We will breathe the sigh of relief after we see the oncologist on Thursday this week and hear it out of his mouth.
The last thing I would like to share with you is something I am just beginning to realize. Brock does not remember very much about his hospital stay. I'm sure glad my dad was with us a lot because I need a witness to prove some of the strange things that went on. Most of them seem funny now. Like Brock just getting up thinking he's going to take a walk and barely giving me time to unplug 3 things from the wall, cover up his behind and gather all the tubes and wires to take along with us. Sometimes I think the Lord protects us by wiping bad things from our memory.
Well, it's time once again for Andy and Opie (The Andy Griffith Show).
Have a successful and healthy week. I will write again, hopefully on Wed. after our visit to the surgeon. We have lots of questions for him.
Thanks for being there. Brock and I appreciate you.
Our God is an AWESOME God!!
Love,
Chris
Tuesday, May 20, 2008
A day in the life May 20
Hello,
I promised a blog this week and today seemed like the right time for catch up.
Brock continues to recover slowly, but surely. The changes are very subtle. Something as simple as turning over in bed. Last night I noticed him do that for the first time. Until now he had to sit up first, he couldn't just roll over. He's able to bend over to pick something up. In church Sunday, we were able to stay for a little while after service to chat with some friends. Last week we were the first ones out the door because he was pretty worn out. He's not asking for help for a lot of little every day things.
Today was a very good day. Brock's office has available every year a wellness program that includes a Chem 17 blood test. It is also availble to spouses. Although Brock did not want to be stuck with another needle, I was excited to have this blood test to keep up on my numbers. My appointment was for 9:10 am. We left early so that Brock could say hello to co-workers. We saw quite a few people and everyone was glad to see him and expressed their excitement at the outcome of this surgery. Most told him how good he looks. We thanked everyone for all their prayers. I want to take a moment to thank you all again for all your prayers and concern for both of us. We are so proud to have every one of you in our lives.
When we left the office, we went out for breakfast with some good friends. It was so great to have some good food and even better company.
After all that excitement, Brock was ready for a nap and did sleep several hours during the day.
This evening some of our kids and grandkids came over and our son-in-law helped with a few little things that needed done around the house. We cooked burgers on the grill. Seems like life is coming back to normal.
I promised a blog this week and today seemed like the right time for catch up.
Brock continues to recover slowly, but surely. The changes are very subtle. Something as simple as turning over in bed. Last night I noticed him do that for the first time. Until now he had to sit up first, he couldn't just roll over. He's able to bend over to pick something up. In church Sunday, we were able to stay for a little while after service to chat with some friends. Last week we were the first ones out the door because he was pretty worn out. He's not asking for help for a lot of little every day things.
Today was a very good day. Brock's office has available every year a wellness program that includes a Chem 17 blood test. It is also availble to spouses. Although Brock did not want to be stuck with another needle, I was excited to have this blood test to keep up on my numbers. My appointment was for 9:10 am. We left early so that Brock could say hello to co-workers. We saw quite a few people and everyone was glad to see him and expressed their excitement at the outcome of this surgery. Most told him how good he looks. We thanked everyone for all their prayers. I want to take a moment to thank you all again for all your prayers and concern for both of us. We are so proud to have every one of you in our lives.
When we left the office, we went out for breakfast with some good friends. It was so great to have some good food and even better company.
After all that excitement, Brock was ready for a nap and did sleep several hours during the day.
This evening some of our kids and grandkids came over and our son-in-law helped with a few little things that needed done around the house. We cooked burgers on the grill. Seems like life is coming back to normal.
Had to have a little brag time. These are our grandkids. These pictures were just taken yesterday. At the moment they are both 4 years old. They are 11 months apart in age. "Irish twins". Our daughter gets their picture taken every year at this time while they are the same age. They are the loves of our life.
I have been having questions about our brother-in-law, Bill. He did extremely well with his surgery and is already home. This family has had so much answer to prayer. We are all very thankful.
Time to watch Andy and Opie, Brock's favorite show.
Our God is an AWESOME God.
Love to all,
Chris
Friday, May 16, 2008
Visit to the Oncologist May 16
Hello everyone on this beautiful Friday evening.
I will get right to the point since I know you signed on to see how the doctor appointment went and not to listen to me ramble on.
Our appointment was at 1:45. We waited in the inside office for a really long time. When the doctor came in, he apologized for being late. He had been on the phone for 1/2 hour trying to get in touch with an oncologist at the IU Med. Center in Indianapolis that only works with Brock's type of cancer. Being Friday afternoon, he wasn't able to reach him.
Our doctor explained what we already knew. This cancer is very rarely caught this early. He said it was a very small tumor. There is nothing in the textbooks regarding ampullary cancer. The 4 types of cancer that I previously mentioned, ampullary, pancreatic, duodenum, and bile duct are all lumped together. Ampullary is the only one that has an actual cure rate. Cure is not a word you hear very often when it comes to cancer.
So with the data available, or I should say not available, he was not sure how to proceed. He weighed out the options either way, he said the chemo would be "a piece of cake", no nausea, no hair loss or stress on the heart. On the other hand, there is no reason to do chemo if it's not necessary. He asked us what the radiologist and the surgeon have said, and that he will confer with them. He said to give him a couple of weeks to work on it. We have another appointment with him on May 30.
Then at 6:15 this evening, the phone rings and it's the oncologist himself. I've just never heard of a personal phone call like this! He said he had spoken to one of the doctors at the IU Med. Center and his consensus is that, "there would be no benefit to chemotherapy." He said he wanted us to know what he found out and he would see us on the 30th. He said they will be having a conference on it. (I think he might have meant a conference call.)
Brock said maybe he'll go down in the medical journals. :) Leave it to Brock, huh?
So it's still a wait and see scenario. We are just trying to digest all of this.
More and more, we are starting to believe this just might be a miracle. This doctor just couldn't believe Brock only had symptoms for 2 weeks before diagnosis. He said people with cancer in the digestive tract usually go months and months before a diagnosis is made.
Thanks to all our doctors for the swift movement on every aspect of this entire journey. That alone saved Brock's life.
Brock's blood pressure is down to normal and heart rate too. Bill is doing very well on his first full day after his heart bypass surgery. Prayer works.
I don't know when I will write again. I'll feel lost without writing to you all. I'm sure I will update you sometime next week.
All the Glory to God!
Our God is an AWESOME God!
Love to all,
Chris
I will get right to the point since I know you signed on to see how the doctor appointment went and not to listen to me ramble on.
Our appointment was at 1:45. We waited in the inside office for a really long time. When the doctor came in, he apologized for being late. He had been on the phone for 1/2 hour trying to get in touch with an oncologist at the IU Med. Center in Indianapolis that only works with Brock's type of cancer. Being Friday afternoon, he wasn't able to reach him.
Our doctor explained what we already knew. This cancer is very rarely caught this early. He said it was a very small tumor. There is nothing in the textbooks regarding ampullary cancer. The 4 types of cancer that I previously mentioned, ampullary, pancreatic, duodenum, and bile duct are all lumped together. Ampullary is the only one that has an actual cure rate. Cure is not a word you hear very often when it comes to cancer.
So with the data available, or I should say not available, he was not sure how to proceed. He weighed out the options either way, he said the chemo would be "a piece of cake", no nausea, no hair loss or stress on the heart. On the other hand, there is no reason to do chemo if it's not necessary. He asked us what the radiologist and the surgeon have said, and that he will confer with them. He said to give him a couple of weeks to work on it. We have another appointment with him on May 30.
Then at 6:15 this evening, the phone rings and it's the oncologist himself. I've just never heard of a personal phone call like this! He said he had spoken to one of the doctors at the IU Med. Center and his consensus is that, "there would be no benefit to chemotherapy." He said he wanted us to know what he found out and he would see us on the 30th. He said they will be having a conference on it. (I think he might have meant a conference call.)
Brock said maybe he'll go down in the medical journals. :) Leave it to Brock, huh?
So it's still a wait and see scenario. We are just trying to digest all of this.
More and more, we are starting to believe this just might be a miracle. This doctor just couldn't believe Brock only had symptoms for 2 weeks before diagnosis. He said people with cancer in the digestive tract usually go months and months before a diagnosis is made.
Thanks to all our doctors for the swift movement on every aspect of this entire journey. That alone saved Brock's life.
Brock's blood pressure is down to normal and heart rate too. Bill is doing very well on his first full day after his heart bypass surgery. Prayer works.
I don't know when I will write again. I'll feel lost without writing to you all. I'm sure I will update you sometime next week.
All the Glory to God!
Our God is an AWESOME God!
Love to all,
Chris
Thursday, May 15, 2008
Visit to the Radiologist May 15
Time for praise!!
The radiologist consensus is that he doesn't see any need for further treatment.
How bout that? We are overwhelmed. We don't even know how to thank the Lord. Before the surgery, we got bad news on top of bad news and now we just keep getting good news on top of better news.
What a great doctor. He spent a lot of time with us. He did say he wants to confer with the surgeon and the oncologist after we see him tomorrow. But with wide margins like this, and the pathologist report, no need for radiation. He told us that when the tumor has been removed, they usually shoot the radiation directly into what they call the bed. Well, Brock's tumor bed is now gone. The whole area was removed by the Whipple Procedure. It all makes sense to me.
We talked quite a bit about ampullary cancer. The fact is, there just aren't any real statistics on it. In the first place, it is very rare and in the second place, it usually spreads before it is found. He said this was found very early.
Also, his blood pressure was down to 118/82. That's about exactly what it was running before the surgery. Brock has seemed a lot more relaxed today. He really resting and calm.
Our brother-in-law, Bill, was rushed into surgery this morning. In fact, they woke them up out of a sound sleep and said the monitors were showing they needed to move quickly. They said he needed the bypass immediately regardless of the risk. And the risk of bleeding was extremely high. He made it through surgery. He still needs prayer that his bleeding stays under control. From what I understand, Bill's 22 year old son went into ICU to see his dad and fainted. We won't let him live that one down. I think Brenda is near exhaustion. I hope she can get some rest now that the worst of it is over.
I will let you all go for now.
Watch for an update after our visit to the oncologist tomorrow.
Our God is an AWESOME God!
Awesome, Awesome
Love to all!!!
Chris
The radiologist consensus is that he doesn't see any need for further treatment.
How bout that? We are overwhelmed. We don't even know how to thank the Lord. Before the surgery, we got bad news on top of bad news and now we just keep getting good news on top of better news.
What a great doctor. He spent a lot of time with us. He did say he wants to confer with the surgeon and the oncologist after we see him tomorrow. But with wide margins like this, and the pathologist report, no need for radiation. He told us that when the tumor has been removed, they usually shoot the radiation directly into what they call the bed. Well, Brock's tumor bed is now gone. The whole area was removed by the Whipple Procedure. It all makes sense to me.
We talked quite a bit about ampullary cancer. The fact is, there just aren't any real statistics on it. In the first place, it is very rare and in the second place, it usually spreads before it is found. He said this was found very early.
Also, his blood pressure was down to 118/82. That's about exactly what it was running before the surgery. Brock has seemed a lot more relaxed today. He really resting and calm.
Our brother-in-law, Bill, was rushed into surgery this morning. In fact, they woke them up out of a sound sleep and said the monitors were showing they needed to move quickly. They said he needed the bypass immediately regardless of the risk. And the risk of bleeding was extremely high. He made it through surgery. He still needs prayer that his bleeding stays under control. From what I understand, Bill's 22 year old son went into ICU to see his dad and fainted. We won't let him live that one down. I think Brenda is near exhaustion. I hope she can get some rest now that the worst of it is over.
I will let you all go for now.
Watch for an update after our visit to the oncologist tomorrow.
Our God is an AWESOME God!
Awesome, Awesome
Love to all!!!
Chris
Tuesday, May 13, 2008
Tuesday May 13
Hello to those of you that may still be with us.
What a gorgeous spring day. I hope you got outside to feel the warm sun.
I said I would update you on the visit to our family physician yesterday. Believe it or not, it was great to be there. The nurse, Kathy, is so personable, sweet, bubbly and efficient. She's always smiling. And sometimes our doctor seems like more of a friend than our doctor. He's extremely smart and always knows the right thing to do. Brock was one of his first patients when Brock came to Fort Wayne 18 years ago. I think the whole time, Brock and the doctor have been teasing back and forth about Brock losing weight. Well, finally he has and the doctor said he looks great. That's really a compliment and I know it made Brock feel like a million bucks.
We talked a lot about the surgery and how we are all thrilled that it went so well. Not only that the surgeon could complete the surgery, but that the cancer was removed in it's entirety. The high blood pressure and fast heartbeat is a puzzle. He decided to put Brock on a low dose beta blocker, hopefully it won't be permanent. We will go back in 6 weeks. It very well could be caused by all this stress on his body and mind. Brock took his first pill this morning and said he thinks he might already feel better. Maybe not quite as fidgety. I don't know if blood pressure can drop in a day with one pill, but we will have it checked tomorrow to see if there is a change.
Today I took Brock to Wendy's to meet his coworkers for lunch. I used the excuse to see one of the grandkids. So we drove one to school and took the other to lunch with us. He was very well behaved and just loves being with his Grandpa (and Grandma :)
Brock pretty much slept off and on the rest of the day.
Hmmm, my blog seems to be getting boring. I guess that's good news.
Please continue to pray for Bill, our brother-in-law. He was having such severe chest pains they had to give him blood thinners and now he cannot have surgery possibly till Monday. It was so bad yesterday, he could only lay flat on his back or he had chest pains. They finally inserted a nitroglycerin IV drip and now he feels a little better. Brenda said all 4 arteries are 100% blocked.
We visit the radiologist on Thursday. I will sign on to let you know what the outcome is.
Thanks to everyone for all the compliments on this blog. I'm glad you have enjoyed it. They always say putting things on paper is therapy. It certainly has been for me. Someday I hope to meet each and every one of you. Your prayers and support has brought us to where we are today.
Our God is an AWESOME God!
With love,
Chris
What a gorgeous spring day. I hope you got outside to feel the warm sun.
I said I would update you on the visit to our family physician yesterday. Believe it or not, it was great to be there. The nurse, Kathy, is so personable, sweet, bubbly and efficient. She's always smiling. And sometimes our doctor seems like more of a friend than our doctor. He's extremely smart and always knows the right thing to do. Brock was one of his first patients when Brock came to Fort Wayne 18 years ago. I think the whole time, Brock and the doctor have been teasing back and forth about Brock losing weight. Well, finally he has and the doctor said he looks great. That's really a compliment and I know it made Brock feel like a million bucks.
We talked a lot about the surgery and how we are all thrilled that it went so well. Not only that the surgeon could complete the surgery, but that the cancer was removed in it's entirety. The high blood pressure and fast heartbeat is a puzzle. He decided to put Brock on a low dose beta blocker, hopefully it won't be permanent. We will go back in 6 weeks. It very well could be caused by all this stress on his body and mind. Brock took his first pill this morning and said he thinks he might already feel better. Maybe not quite as fidgety. I don't know if blood pressure can drop in a day with one pill, but we will have it checked tomorrow to see if there is a change.
Today I took Brock to Wendy's to meet his coworkers for lunch. I used the excuse to see one of the grandkids. So we drove one to school and took the other to lunch with us. He was very well behaved and just loves being with his Grandpa (and Grandma :)
Brock pretty much slept off and on the rest of the day.
Hmmm, my blog seems to be getting boring. I guess that's good news.
Please continue to pray for Bill, our brother-in-law. He was having such severe chest pains they had to give him blood thinners and now he cannot have surgery possibly till Monday. It was so bad yesterday, he could only lay flat on his back or he had chest pains. They finally inserted a nitroglycerin IV drip and now he feels a little better. Brenda said all 4 arteries are 100% blocked.
We visit the radiologist on Thursday. I will sign on to let you know what the outcome is.
Thanks to everyone for all the compliments on this blog. I'm glad you have enjoyed it. They always say putting things on paper is therapy. It certainly has been for me. Someday I hope to meet each and every one of you. Your prayers and support has brought us to where we are today.
Our God is an AWESOME God!
With love,
Chris
Monday, May 12, 2008
Visit to the Surgeon May 12
Hello to all our friends and family,
I last updated you on Tuesday of last week. Since then, we are just taking one day at a time. Slow improvement each day. Whether the sun is shining or not has a lot to do with how much goes on around here. When it's sunny, Brock wants to be on the go and be outside.
On Saturday, we went to the range as there was a shooting match and Brock very much wanted to see the guys. It was the highlight of his week until Sunday when we went to church. Getting back to church after only two weeks was the ultimate. Here is a picture of our "patient" on the way to church.
He doesn't look much like a patient, huh? Looks pretty good if I do say so myself! :)
We had to buy him new clothes, not one thing he owns fits him.
His weight has leveled off for the last 3 days at 217. He is trying different foods each day. So far, so good. Very small meals and still drinking ensure. He gets full easy.
Sleeping is better now, he is able to lay on both sides, but he still wakes up quite often and spends some time on the couch during the night.
You never know when he will get tired and need a nap. It comes on quite suddenly. He naps 2 to 3 times a day.
Eighteen days since surgery. We feel that he has done remarkably well. If anyone would like to come visit, just give us a call. He would love some company.
Today was our first visit to the surgeon. He was very pleased. We were hoping to get the feeding tube removed today, but the doctor said it needs to stay in two more weeks.
Sounds like it has to do with the healing inside. We just have to flush it twice a day with tap water.
Brock thought for sure he would be able to drive, but four weeks from surgery would be minimum, so he's stuck with me as his chauffeur till late next week.
This time we both heard what we thought we heard in the hospital, but were afraid to voice outloud. The surgeon said he does NOT think Brock needs chemo or radiation. If fact, he said it twice. It seems to good to be true. Just making it through the surgery and getting this far has, in itself, been a miracle. The fact that they removed all the cancer and feel this confident about it, is simply, a gift from God.
We do have appointments with a radiologist and an oncologist. That will be the final answer. I know people are split right down the middle, those that think he should have chemo (just to be sure) and those that feel he doesn't need chemo if the man removing the cancer says there is nothing else lurking in Brock's body. We are going into it with completely open minds. We won't make any decision until we hear all sides. Ultimately, it's up to Brock and I will back him on whatever he decides.
One thing has cropped up that I haven't mentioned to you all. Since the moment Brock came out of surgery, he has had high blood pressure and fast pulse. At first we thought it was related to the surgery itself, then later to the fact he was so stressed being in the hospital. Then after getting home and home health care took his pressure, he did have swollen ankles, so the high pressure was thought to be fluid retention. Now that his ankles have returned to normal, he's home, not stressed, his blood pressure is still quite high. At 3:00 today we are returning to our family practitioner to talk to him about it and see what to do. We have been told that a traumatic incident, (an accident or major surgery) can sometimes make a problem like this show up. It may have happened later in life, it was just brought out sooner. There is a lot of high blood pressure in Brock's family, so this might just be the way it is from now on. I'll let you know after our appointment today.
In the meantime, we are asking for prayer for our brother-in-law, Bill, who had a heart attack on Saturday evening. Bill is the husband of Brock's sister Brenda. Many of you met her as she stayed with me during Brock's surgery, and for a few days afterwards. We got the word a little while ago that he has 4 blocked arteries and will need bypass surgery, probably tomorrow. Brock's mom had cataract surgery today and it went very well. This family is sure going through some trials.
Thanks again for staying with us. Your notes of encouragement, your prayers have kept us at peace and willing to accept God's will, regardless of what it is.
We all wish we could manage these trials on our own time, but one thing stuck out in the sermon at church yesterday....the right time is God's time. You never know the who, what, where, when why or how.
Our God is an AWESOME God!
We love you,
Chris & Brock
I last updated you on Tuesday of last week. Since then, we are just taking one day at a time. Slow improvement each day. Whether the sun is shining or not has a lot to do with how much goes on around here. When it's sunny, Brock wants to be on the go and be outside.
On Saturday, we went to the range as there was a shooting match and Brock very much wanted to see the guys. It was the highlight of his week until Sunday when we went to church. Getting back to church after only two weeks was the ultimate. Here is a picture of our "patient" on the way to church.
He doesn't look much like a patient, huh? Looks pretty good if I do say so myself! :)We had to buy him new clothes, not one thing he owns fits him.
His weight has leveled off for the last 3 days at 217. He is trying different foods each day. So far, so good. Very small meals and still drinking ensure. He gets full easy.
Sleeping is better now, he is able to lay on both sides, but he still wakes up quite often and spends some time on the couch during the night.
You never know when he will get tired and need a nap. It comes on quite suddenly. He naps 2 to 3 times a day.
Eighteen days since surgery. We feel that he has done remarkably well. If anyone would like to come visit, just give us a call. He would love some company.
Today was our first visit to the surgeon. He was very pleased. We were hoping to get the feeding tube removed today, but the doctor said it needs to stay in two more weeks.
Sounds like it has to do with the healing inside. We just have to flush it twice a day with tap water.
Brock thought for sure he would be able to drive, but four weeks from surgery would be minimum, so he's stuck with me as his chauffeur till late next week.
This time we both heard what we thought we heard in the hospital, but were afraid to voice outloud. The surgeon said he does NOT think Brock needs chemo or radiation. If fact, he said it twice. It seems to good to be true. Just making it through the surgery and getting this far has, in itself, been a miracle. The fact that they removed all the cancer and feel this confident about it, is simply, a gift from God.
We do have appointments with a radiologist and an oncologist. That will be the final answer. I know people are split right down the middle, those that think he should have chemo (just to be sure) and those that feel he doesn't need chemo if the man removing the cancer says there is nothing else lurking in Brock's body. We are going into it with completely open minds. We won't make any decision until we hear all sides. Ultimately, it's up to Brock and I will back him on whatever he decides.
One thing has cropped up that I haven't mentioned to you all. Since the moment Brock came out of surgery, he has had high blood pressure and fast pulse. At first we thought it was related to the surgery itself, then later to the fact he was so stressed being in the hospital. Then after getting home and home health care took his pressure, he did have swollen ankles, so the high pressure was thought to be fluid retention. Now that his ankles have returned to normal, he's home, not stressed, his blood pressure is still quite high. At 3:00 today we are returning to our family practitioner to talk to him about it and see what to do. We have been told that a traumatic incident, (an accident or major surgery) can sometimes make a problem like this show up. It may have happened later in life, it was just brought out sooner. There is a lot of high blood pressure in Brock's family, so this might just be the way it is from now on. I'll let you know after our appointment today.
In the meantime, we are asking for prayer for our brother-in-law, Bill, who had a heart attack on Saturday evening. Bill is the husband of Brock's sister Brenda. Many of you met her as she stayed with me during Brock's surgery, and for a few days afterwards. We got the word a little while ago that he has 4 blocked arteries and will need bypass surgery, probably tomorrow. Brock's mom had cataract surgery today and it went very well. This family is sure going through some trials.
Thanks again for staying with us. Your notes of encouragement, your prayers have kept us at peace and willing to accept God's will, regardless of what it is.
We all wish we could manage these trials on our own time, but one thing stuck out in the sermon at church yesterday....the right time is God's time. You never know the who, what, where, when why or how.
Our God is an AWESOME God!
We love you,
Chris & Brock
Thursday, May 8, 2008
Recovery Journey
Hello to family and friends that are staying with us through this recovery journey.
I last wrote on Tuesday. It's surprising how fast time is going. It's already 2 weeks today since surgery. One thing for sure, the body is an amazing thing. The healing is coming along. Brock is moving better every day. He finally had a shower today. I think he was really enjoying those sponge baths. :)
The home health care came in last evening and put a smaller aparatus on his tube feed tube. Since we're not using it, it was really in the way and hindering his getting comfortable for sleep. We are hoping the doctor takes it out at our appointment on Monday.
We are having fun doing a complete turn around on diet. For so many years, forever really, all we think about is low fat, fat free, low calorie foods. Now we need to go the complete opposite. He needs over 2,000 calories a day. His weight has dropped to 224. I know the doctor won't want him losing weight, but he still has a way to go. The charts say he should weigh 184, which is crazy. If he weighed 210, I think it would be OK. If anyone would like to contribute to an entire wardrobe, even down to the underwear....
Yesterday we took a short walk, the weather here isn't cooperating. It's rainy and around 60. We did take a ride through Foster Park to look at the world renowned tulip gardens. I've only wanted to do that for 9 years. We were almost too late this year, but it is pretty.
Sleeping is better. We are in our own room now. Although I woke up twice last night and Brock was gone. He moves from his recliner, to the couch, to the bed. Wherever he wants to sleep is fine with me.
Our biggest plan for this week is making it to church on Sunday. If he keeps improving the way he has the past 2 days, we will be there glorifying God.
During Brock's recovery we can't help think of the others that are in need of prayer at this time. Brock's Dad had a minor surgery and his Mom is having a cataract removed next week.
Becky White, during her recovery from successful back surgery for a likely benign tumor on her spinal cord, Tracy Ropp and Tammy Stultz, both young ladies, while they are going through medical problems right now. At the risk of missing someone, there are many more that can use prayer and God's blessing during medical trials.
God's blessing on us throughout the diagnosis, waiting for surgery, surgery and hospital experience was made easier by all of you praying for us and being there for us. It is just too cliche to say, there are not enough words to thank you for your faithfulness and your support. I wish I could come up with something new, but I'm quite speechless. Brock and I love you all.
I will update after the doctor appointment on Monday May 12.
Thanks again and keep in mind...
Our God is an AWESOME God!
Love,
Chris
I last wrote on Tuesday. It's surprising how fast time is going. It's already 2 weeks today since surgery. One thing for sure, the body is an amazing thing. The healing is coming along. Brock is moving better every day. He finally had a shower today. I think he was really enjoying those sponge baths. :)
The home health care came in last evening and put a smaller aparatus on his tube feed tube. Since we're not using it, it was really in the way and hindering his getting comfortable for sleep. We are hoping the doctor takes it out at our appointment on Monday.
We are having fun doing a complete turn around on diet. For so many years, forever really, all we think about is low fat, fat free, low calorie foods. Now we need to go the complete opposite. He needs over 2,000 calories a day. His weight has dropped to 224. I know the doctor won't want him losing weight, but he still has a way to go. The charts say he should weigh 184, which is crazy. If he weighed 210, I think it would be OK. If anyone would like to contribute to an entire wardrobe, even down to the underwear....
Yesterday we took a short walk, the weather here isn't cooperating. It's rainy and around 60. We did take a ride through Foster Park to look at the world renowned tulip gardens. I've only wanted to do that for 9 years. We were almost too late this year, but it is pretty.
Sleeping is better. We are in our own room now. Although I woke up twice last night and Brock was gone. He moves from his recliner, to the couch, to the bed. Wherever he wants to sleep is fine with me.
Our biggest plan for this week is making it to church on Sunday. If he keeps improving the way he has the past 2 days, we will be there glorifying God.
During Brock's recovery we can't help think of the others that are in need of prayer at this time. Brock's Dad had a minor surgery and his Mom is having a cataract removed next week.
Becky White, during her recovery from successful back surgery for a likely benign tumor on her spinal cord, Tracy Ropp and Tammy Stultz, both young ladies, while they are going through medical problems right now. At the risk of missing someone, there are many more that can use prayer and God's blessing during medical trials.
God's blessing on us throughout the diagnosis, waiting for surgery, surgery and hospital experience was made easier by all of you praying for us and being there for us. It is just too cliche to say, there are not enough words to thank you for your faithfulness and your support. I wish I could come up with something new, but I'm quite speechless. Brock and I love you all.
I will update after the doctor appointment on Monday May 12.
Thanks again and keep in mind...
Our God is an AWESOME God!
Love,
Chris
Tuesday, May 6, 2008
Time to recover
Hello everyone,
I have been telling Brock for the last 24 hours that I need to get something out to you. I know some of you are wondering.
We were both so happy to arrive home on Sunday. Minutes after arriving, along come our daughter and son-in-law with the 2 grandkids to put up a welcome home banner for Grandpa. They couldn't believe we were home already. We had a nice short visit.
When we left the hospital we had a surprise. The discharge nurse had a lot of written instructions and was going over everything. We were shocked when she said "diet as tolerated". We had no idea he would be able to eat whatever he felt like eating. Before surgery, we had the idea he would only tube feed for weeks while his body healed. Not so! He ate pudding, yogurt and broth, but got brave and had saltines with it! He's also drinking juices.
Later in the afternoon, home health care came by to teach us how to use the tube feed equipment that was delivered by another company. It was quite tiring as it took a couple of hours. Brock was set up to have the pump running from 6 pm to 8 am. The food is a lot like ensure (if anyone is familiar with that). Just really good nutrition. Well, he couldn't sleep much the first night. He says it makes him feel full and he couldn't get comfortable. Every time I woke up, there was Brock just standing there. It was a long night. We ended up turning it off 3 hours early. It's easy to use, and all I have to do is flush the tube with tap water. (I feel like a nurse. :) The tube actually was surgically implanted in his intestine, not his stomach.
On Monday we were both tired from not sleeping the night before, but did manage to take one walk outside and one ride in the car. I went grocery shopping and also picked up Motrin so we could get him off the strong pain meds that just don't agree with him. We both slept some. He ate a lot more, including an ensure to make up for the tube feed he couldn't take in, oatmeal, frosted flakes, a donut, pudding, juice, milk, and topped it off with a Wendy's chicken to go wrap. We were so proud.
He wasn't able to lay down, only recline, so we called the home health nurse and he said that is common. Many people cannot lie flat. So throughout the day, he practiced on the couch and bed to try laying flat. Finally today he is able to lie on his left side only (not his back or right side yet.)
On Monday evening I know Brock was dreading getting the tube feed going. Well, Monday night went worse. At 12:30 a.m. he woke me up and said he couldn't take it anymore, so we turned it off.
He still didn't sleep well the rest of the night.
This morning Brock called the surgeon's office and talked to them about just eating by mouth and they gave him permission to try. We were so happy. He really feels like he can get adequate nutrition by mouth. After that he took a nap and has slept 3 times today. Praise the Lord! That's a big hurdle.
I have been telling Brock for the last 24 hours that I need to get something out to you. I know some of you are wondering.
We were both so happy to arrive home on Sunday. Minutes after arriving, along come our daughter and son-in-law with the 2 grandkids to put up a welcome home banner for Grandpa. They couldn't believe we were home already. We had a nice short visit.
When we left the hospital we had a surprise. The discharge nurse had a lot of written instructions and was going over everything. We were shocked when she said "diet as tolerated". We had no idea he would be able to eat whatever he felt like eating. Before surgery, we had the idea he would only tube feed for weeks while his body healed. Not so! He ate pudding, yogurt and broth, but got brave and had saltines with it! He's also drinking juices.
Later in the afternoon, home health care came by to teach us how to use the tube feed equipment that was delivered by another company. It was quite tiring as it took a couple of hours. Brock was set up to have the pump running from 6 pm to 8 am. The food is a lot like ensure (if anyone is familiar with that). Just really good nutrition. Well, he couldn't sleep much the first night. He says it makes him feel full and he couldn't get comfortable. Every time I woke up, there was Brock just standing there. It was a long night. We ended up turning it off 3 hours early. It's easy to use, and all I have to do is flush the tube with tap water. (I feel like a nurse. :) The tube actually was surgically implanted in his intestine, not his stomach.
On Monday we were both tired from not sleeping the night before, but did manage to take one walk outside and one ride in the car. I went grocery shopping and also picked up Motrin so we could get him off the strong pain meds that just don't agree with him. We both slept some. He ate a lot more, including an ensure to make up for the tube feed he couldn't take in, oatmeal, frosted flakes, a donut, pudding, juice, milk, and topped it off with a Wendy's chicken to go wrap. We were so proud.
He wasn't able to lay down, only recline, so we called the home health nurse and he said that is common. Many people cannot lie flat. So throughout the day, he practiced on the couch and bed to try laying flat. Finally today he is able to lie on his left side only (not his back or right side yet.)
On Monday evening I know Brock was dreading getting the tube feed going. Well, Monday night went worse. At 12:30 a.m. he woke me up and said he couldn't take it anymore, so we turned it off.
He still didn't sleep well the rest of the night.
This morning Brock called the surgeon's office and talked to them about just eating by mouth and they gave him permission to try. We were so happy. He really feels like he can get adequate nutrition by mouth. After that he took a nap and has slept 3 times today. Praise the Lord! That's a big hurdle.
Brock wanted you all to know he was up to voting this morning and it was a good feeling. I hope all you Hoosiers got out to vote today too.
So we are taking one day at a time. Easy does it.
We haven't had many visitors yet as he just doesn't know when he's going to have to sleep. When he wears down, it comes on suddenly. We are thinking of all of you and very thankful to have you in our lives.
Matthew 28:20 And teaching them to obey everything I have commanded you. And surely I am with you always to the very end of the age.
or as our Grandson age 4 (almost 5) says, "Jesus said, " I will be with you always.""
Our God is an AWESOME God!
Have a great week. We have a follow up appointment with the surgeon on Monday, May 12, but I'm planning to blog before then.
Love,
Chris
Sunday, May 4, 2008
Here he is!!
Hello to everyone!
Here is the man of the hour, on his way home. That's my father pushing him out of the hospital. Believe me, he would've been walking if they would've let him. My dad was a rock during this whole hospital experience. He was beside us every step of the way and we appreciate him and love him dearly.
This is the time to thank all of you for all you've done. In no particular order, prayer, mowing our lawn, prayer, cleaning my house, prayer, bringing the grandkids to see us, prayer, taking our garbage out to the street, prayer, taking me to lunch, prayer, staying with Brock late at night when I couldn't be there. Cards, emails, phone calls and good wishes and visits. Being there for both of us and pouring out your love to us. And especially to our surgeon, his knowledge, expertise and ability, afforded us this opportunity to grow old together. We are so grateful. We love each and every one of you.
We are very tired tonight. I will write tomorrow and go into more detail when my mind is clearer. Right now I just want to sit beside my husband, with his remote in hand and watch whatever HE wants to watch on TV.
As we drove out of the circle drive of the hospital, with tears in our eyes, we thanked God for this beautiful spring day, for the flowers and trees blooming, for the glory of life. We will cherish every day He gives us. Then we turned on the CD and played, "Our God is an AWESOME God."
Sleep well and have a great week.
Love,
Chris
Day Ten Mid-Morning May 4
Well, here it is 10 days out. When we originally saw the surgeon and he explained the Whipple Procedure, he had told us to expect 1-3 days in ICU and 10 to 11 days in the hospital, so needless to say we are hoping to go home today. He hasn’t been in yet to give us the word.
I didn’t write yesterday, not because it wasn’t a long day cause it was.
On Friday night I got to sleep about 10 pm. At 1 am Brock called. He was awake and sounded good and said he was doing ok. At 2 am he called again. I wasn’t back to sleep yet. This time he asked if I would come, he couldn’t sleep, couldn’t get comfortable and I think he was just plain lonely, so I pretty much just left the house. Didn’t take anything with me, (computer, lunch, etc.) He was sound asleep when I got there. I soon realized he seemed to be sleeping about 10 minutes at a time. I found out what he means about a dungeon. Why is it everything seems worse at night? As the sun rose, our hospital room looked bright and perfectly comfortable. I’m realizing now, I probably should’ve moved on into the room before now. It might have helped more than I know. I didn’t sleep very well at home anyway.
When the doctor was in, he said Brock could probably go home tomorrow (today, Sunday). He wanted to watch the drain that was showing infection, although nothing had come out of it for quite some time. They removed the drain on the left side and all the rest of the staples. He went to pills instead of shots for the meds he is still on. (pain meds are, motrin and darveset. He is finished with the nasty narcotics).
No fever at all on Saturday. He went on soft foods instead of just liquids. Oatmeal, crème soups, puddings, ice cream. He is tolerating them very well so far.
I will stop here as the morning is getting quite busy on the floor. A lot of noise and interruptions.
Hopefully I’ll be writing from home next with Brock there with me.
Our God is an AWESOME God!
Happy Sunday to you!
Love to all,
Chris
I didn’t write yesterday, not because it wasn’t a long day cause it was.
On Friday night I got to sleep about 10 pm. At 1 am Brock called. He was awake and sounded good and said he was doing ok. At 2 am he called again. I wasn’t back to sleep yet. This time he asked if I would come, he couldn’t sleep, couldn’t get comfortable and I think he was just plain lonely, so I pretty much just left the house. Didn’t take anything with me, (computer, lunch, etc.) He was sound asleep when I got there. I soon realized he seemed to be sleeping about 10 minutes at a time. I found out what he means about a dungeon. Why is it everything seems worse at night? As the sun rose, our hospital room looked bright and perfectly comfortable. I’m realizing now, I probably should’ve moved on into the room before now. It might have helped more than I know. I didn’t sleep very well at home anyway.
When the doctor was in, he said Brock could probably go home tomorrow (today, Sunday). He wanted to watch the drain that was showing infection, although nothing had come out of it for quite some time. They removed the drain on the left side and all the rest of the staples. He went to pills instead of shots for the meds he is still on. (pain meds are, motrin and darveset. He is finished with the nasty narcotics).
No fever at all on Saturday. He went on soft foods instead of just liquids. Oatmeal, crème soups, puddings, ice cream. He is tolerating them very well so far.
I will stop here as the morning is getting quite busy on the floor. A lot of noise and interruptions.
Hopefully I’ll be writing from home next with Brock there with me.
Our God is an AWESOME God!
Happy Sunday to you!
Love to all,
Chris
Saturday, May 3, 2008
Day Nine Late Afternoon May 3
I'm sure there are a few of you out there that are wondering about us.
It's just been a busy, busy day.
Well everyone, it most probably will be tomorrow.
Homecoming!!
I will write a complete blog later this evening. I am staying the night as I received a call at 2 am last night to please come keep him company.
Our God is an AWESOME God!
Love to all,
Chris
It's just been a busy, busy day.
Well everyone, it most probably will be tomorrow.
Homecoming!!
I will write a complete blog later this evening. I am staying the night as I received a call at 2 am last night to please come keep him company.
Our God is an AWESOME God!
Love to all,
Chris
Friday, May 2, 2008
Day Eight Mid Afternoon May 2
Hello for the second time today.
Over the past 3 hours, I have tried to find a few minutes to write. Actually we've had a quiet day compared to other days before now.
Update on the infection. I don't want to say it's better because I really don't know, but the drainage on that side has slowed down and his fever only rose to 99.1 where as yesterday it went to 101.5. So keep praying for that and the other specific thing that he would get rest tonight.
He seems to be relaxing a little better today.
Yesterday he did get 1/2 of the staples out. Every other one. The incision looks good so far.
The biggest news is... at this moment he is not connected to anything. He is free. We took a picture of him without pushing the pole, but I don't have my cords here to download and share it with you. From here on out, only tube feeding at night from 6 pm to 10 am. The IV is capped off, but still in his arm. He is getting the antibiotic once a day, so they will connect him for that. A little bit ago he sat on the opposite side of the bed and said, "I'm getting up this way cause I can." Wow! That's my Brock. Feisty and adventurous.
The discharge nurse suggested I go to Cancer Services because PHP will not pay for Brock's food for the tube feed that he will do at home also from 6 pm to 10 am. Cancer Services has it at cost. It is pretty frustrating, they will pay for so many medications that people really don't need, but this food will literally keep him alive. Oh well, this is the first thing they have refused to pay for. If anyone knows of a person that has been diagnosed with cancer, please sign up there for help. They had us sign up yesterday. It's an amazing place. You can use just about anything free of charge, just bring it back when you are finished, like crutches, all kids of equipment. Bandages, bed pads, you name it. They help with transportation if you need it, support groups, even massage therapy.
I hope you all are happy just reading the blog and not actually talking to us. Brock really isn't up to it yet and I'm too tired at night to make any calls.
We've had a really rainy day here although it's warm, over 70.
I hope everyone has a wonderful weekend. I know our weekend will be wonderful as every day is, now that this surgery is behind us. One thing for sure, I finally realize what is meant by "in sickness and in health". You wish you could take the pain away, you wish you could share the pain. The joy of seeing small changes for the better just makes your heart sing!
Until next time....
Our God is an AWESOME God!
With love from Chris
Over the past 3 hours, I have tried to find a few minutes to write. Actually we've had a quiet day compared to other days before now.
Update on the infection. I don't want to say it's better because I really don't know, but the drainage on that side has slowed down and his fever only rose to 99.1 where as yesterday it went to 101.5. So keep praying for that and the other specific thing that he would get rest tonight.
He seems to be relaxing a little better today.
Yesterday he did get 1/2 of the staples out. Every other one. The incision looks good so far.
The biggest news is... at this moment he is not connected to anything. He is free. We took a picture of him without pushing the pole, but I don't have my cords here to download and share it with you. From here on out, only tube feeding at night from 6 pm to 10 am. The IV is capped off, but still in his arm. He is getting the antibiotic once a day, so they will connect him for that. A little bit ago he sat on the opposite side of the bed and said, "I'm getting up this way cause I can." Wow! That's my Brock. Feisty and adventurous.
The discharge nurse suggested I go to Cancer Services because PHP will not pay for Brock's food for the tube feed that he will do at home also from 6 pm to 10 am. Cancer Services has it at cost. It is pretty frustrating, they will pay for so many medications that people really don't need, but this food will literally keep him alive. Oh well, this is the first thing they have refused to pay for. If anyone knows of a person that has been diagnosed with cancer, please sign up there for help. They had us sign up yesterday. It's an amazing place. You can use just about anything free of charge, just bring it back when you are finished, like crutches, all kids of equipment. Bandages, bed pads, you name it. They help with transportation if you need it, support groups, even massage therapy.
I hope you all are happy just reading the blog and not actually talking to us. Brock really isn't up to it yet and I'm too tired at night to make any calls.
We've had a really rainy day here although it's warm, over 70.
I hope everyone has a wonderful weekend. I know our weekend will be wonderful as every day is, now that this surgery is behind us. One thing for sure, I finally realize what is meant by "in sickness and in health". You wish you could take the pain away, you wish you could share the pain. The joy of seeing small changes for the better just makes your heart sing!
Until next time....
Our God is an AWESOME God!
With love from Chris
Day Eight Early Morning Prayer Request
Good Morning to the early risers,
I arrived at the hospital today at 6:15. I already missed the doctor.
I will make this short so you can get to praying about an infection Brock has developed. The drain on his right side is showing there is infection of some kind. Two days ago he developed a fever in the afternoon. It rose to 101.5, then went back down. Yesterday the doctor said the drain is showing infection and ordered the antibiotic. This morning it is still the same so he told Brock if it doesn't improve, they may need to do a CAT scan to see what might be going on inside. Extra prayers today that this infection subscides and that the antibotic takes care of it.
I will write more later as time allows.
Our God is an AWESOME God!
Love from Chris
I arrived at the hospital today at 6:15. I already missed the doctor.
I will make this short so you can get to praying about an infection Brock has developed. The drain on his right side is showing there is infection of some kind. Two days ago he developed a fever in the afternoon. It rose to 101.5, then went back down. Yesterday the doctor said the drain is showing infection and ordered the antibiotic. This morning it is still the same so he told Brock if it doesn't improve, they may need to do a CAT scan to see what might be going on inside. Extra prayers today that this infection subscides and that the antibotic takes care of it.
I will write more later as time allows.
Our God is an AWESOME God!
Love from Chris
Thursday, May 1, 2008
Day Seven Late Morning May 1
Good Morning to anyone that might be checking Brock's update today,
The surgeon was just in, but before I tell you about today, I'll mention the night's escapades.
I received a call from Brock at 1 a.m. He had another reaction to meds. This time it was most probably Ambien. He woke up to another new nurse (I'm guessing in the week we've been here we've seen at least 50 different RN's, LPN's and NA's). He thought she was keeping him captive in his room and by golly, he was going to find a way out. And he did. He disconnected himself and was moving on down the hall when one of the gals he recognized said, "Brock, where are you going?" So no more sleep aids.
He is doing real well with the new pain meds, not complaining about pain at all. I arrived here at the hospital at 6:15 am and he kept me hopping till 8:30 when he had a 45 minute nap. He shaved himself in the bathroom, walked a bunch, had his sponge bath :) sat in the chair, sat on the bed, walked some more, ate some breakfast, (broth and juice). Whew, the man wore me out!
Now to the doctor visit. He got the NG tube out!! Praise the Lord, he looks great! And it feels SO good to him. Like I said, every day something else disappears. Also he might get a few of the staples out probably today. I became bold again and asked the doctor approximately how many days we're looking at before he goes home. (I just don't want them springing it on me suddenly.) He said 2 or 3 more days. So he should be home by Monday. And to think today was the original surgery date. Oh yes, the National Day of Prayer is today. I pray for good health for every one of you. You are precious to us.
They brought a scale in and at this point he hasn't lost any more weight. We don't want to have to buy an entire new wardrobe. :) Some of you might not know that from the time he had flu like symptoms starting on March 12 till the day of surgery, he lost 25 pounds. It would be nice to stay where he is now.
Yesterday afternoon he had some fever, so the doctor is putting him on an antibiotic.
My Dad mentioned that we just keep getting answer to prayer. Amen to that!!
I better go for now before I get interrupted. It's hard to find a chunk of time to write except late when I get home and I'm also a morning person.
Our God is an AWESOME God! (I hope no one is tired of Brock's song yet. :)
Everyone enjoy this wonderful spring day.
With love,
Chris
The surgeon was just in, but before I tell you about today, I'll mention the night's escapades.
I received a call from Brock at 1 a.m. He had another reaction to meds. This time it was most probably Ambien. He woke up to another new nurse (I'm guessing in the week we've been here we've seen at least 50 different RN's, LPN's and NA's). He thought she was keeping him captive in his room and by golly, he was going to find a way out. And he did. He disconnected himself and was moving on down the hall when one of the gals he recognized said, "Brock, where are you going?" So no more sleep aids.
He is doing real well with the new pain meds, not complaining about pain at all. I arrived here at the hospital at 6:15 am and he kept me hopping till 8:30 when he had a 45 minute nap. He shaved himself in the bathroom, walked a bunch, had his sponge bath :) sat in the chair, sat on the bed, walked some more, ate some breakfast, (broth and juice). Whew, the man wore me out!
Now to the doctor visit. He got the NG tube out!! Praise the Lord, he looks great! And it feels SO good to him. Like I said, every day something else disappears. Also he might get a few of the staples out probably today. I became bold again and asked the doctor approximately how many days we're looking at before he goes home. (I just don't want them springing it on me suddenly.) He said 2 or 3 more days. So he should be home by Monday. And to think today was the original surgery date. Oh yes, the National Day of Prayer is today. I pray for good health for every one of you. You are precious to us.
They brought a scale in and at this point he hasn't lost any more weight. We don't want to have to buy an entire new wardrobe. :) Some of you might not know that from the time he had flu like symptoms starting on March 12 till the day of surgery, he lost 25 pounds. It would be nice to stay where he is now.
Yesterday afternoon he had some fever, so the doctor is putting him on an antibiotic.
My Dad mentioned that we just keep getting answer to prayer. Amen to that!!
I better go for now before I get interrupted. It's hard to find a chunk of time to write except late when I get home and I'm also a morning person.
Our God is an AWESOME God! (I hope no one is tired of Brock's song yet. :)
Everyone enjoy this wonderful spring day.
With love,
Chris
Wednesday, April 30, 2008
Day Six Early Evening April 30
Hello again here on day six after surgery.
Your prayers have helped. Brock has gotten some rest today, but better than that, he had the best nurse all day. She helped him so much. He is on a different pain medicine now. I was partly right, he did have anxiety, but they think it was chemically induced by the pain meds he was on. The nurse on duty today said she's seen it many times. He also will get a sleep aid tonight, so pray that he gets a good night's sleep. If he does, he can work more tomorrow on walking and eating. He now can eat as much as he wants of a clear diet. A few bites of a popsicle, a few spoons of broth and that's about it.
They have capped off the NG tube, but haven't taken it out yet. As he begins eating, he needs to be aware of any nausea. If he has nausea, they will connect the tube again to relieve it.
The surgeon was in late morning. He said Brock is doing great. He was about to leave and so I became bold and asked him if there was any decision made regarding further treatment. He said, "it's very unlikley." He said he might have an oncologist come in to talk to us, but it's unlikley any further treament will be needed. So there it is. Our miracle.
I rested for an hour and a half at my Dad's place (just a quick walk from here), while he stayed with Brock. Although I didn't sleep, I did relax a bit.
I'm going to leave you here for tonight.
Thanks for listening, thanks for being there, thanks for the prayers and just being you.
Our God is an AWESOME God! Always.
Sleep Well.
Love,
Chris
Your prayers have helped. Brock has gotten some rest today, but better than that, he had the best nurse all day. She helped him so much. He is on a different pain medicine now. I was partly right, he did have anxiety, but they think it was chemically induced by the pain meds he was on. The nurse on duty today said she's seen it many times. He also will get a sleep aid tonight, so pray that he gets a good night's sleep. If he does, he can work more tomorrow on walking and eating. He now can eat as much as he wants of a clear diet. A few bites of a popsicle, a few spoons of broth and that's about it.
They have capped off the NG tube, but haven't taken it out yet. As he begins eating, he needs to be aware of any nausea. If he has nausea, they will connect the tube again to relieve it.
The surgeon was in late morning. He said Brock is doing great. He was about to leave and so I became bold and asked him if there was any decision made regarding further treatment. He said, "it's very unlikley." He said he might have an oncologist come in to talk to us, but it's unlikley any further treament will be needed. So there it is. Our miracle.
I rested for an hour and a half at my Dad's place (just a quick walk from here), while he stayed with Brock. Although I didn't sleep, I did relax a bit.
I'm going to leave you here for tonight.
Thanks for listening, thanks for being there, thanks for the prayers and just being you.
Our God is an AWESOME God! Always.
Sleep Well.
Love,
Chris
Day Six Prayer Request
Good Morning to all,
I couldn't sleep at 3 am , so I got up and got a few things done before coming to the hospital at 6 am. I wanted to make sure I see the doctor today.
Brock slept only 2 hours. The nurse even said he had a very bad night.
Please pray for sleep. He can't rest for some unknown reason. Personally I think it's some anxiety which he has never had his entire life.
When he dozes off for all of 5 to 10 minutes and wakes up, his eyes are big and he looks scared.
It's now 7 am, I will update you later today.
Love,
Chris
I couldn't sleep at 3 am , so I got up and got a few things done before coming to the hospital at 6 am. I wanted to make sure I see the doctor today.
Brock slept only 2 hours. The nurse even said he had a very bad night.
Please pray for sleep. He can't rest for some unknown reason. Personally I think it's some anxiety which he has never had his entire life.
When he dozes off for all of 5 to 10 minutes and wakes up, his eyes are big and he looks scared.
It's now 7 am, I will update you later today.
Love,
Chris
Tuesday, April 29, 2008
Day Five Tuesday Evening April 29
Brock says, "I'm mobile", but he does have a lot of baggage! :) Hello to all of our readers. I don't know how many of you are sticking with me on this daily saga, but I welcome all of you!!
I made it to the hospital at 7:15 am today and the surgeon was just finishing in Brock's room. I caught the tail end of the conversation. It was concerning the NG tube. It can't come out until the digestive system begins working, so he suggested liquid diet. Juice, jello, broth, popsicles, pop and water. Before this, it was ice chips only. The nurse suggested apple juice. That did the trick about 6 hours later. So this is a huge praise! Brock is back on the throne after a 5 day hiatus. The only thing missing was the ShotGun News, his favorite bathroom reading material. But with juggling all the tubes and wires, I don't even think he noticed he didn't have anything to read.
One strange thing that I didn't understand, was that his blood pressure dropped immediately after going to the bathroom. How one has anything to do with the other is beyond me and I'm not even going to try any further to understand this miracle God made called the human body!
The port in his neck is gone. It has a huge bandage on it that should come off this evening. Ever so slowly the apparatus is disappearing. I did take a picture of his incision today, but I will forgo showing it to you for fear of someone not being able to handle the shock. There are 25 staples. I think it looks very good, considering. And even Brock said he thought it would be longer.
He took lots of walks, at least 7, I might have lost count. He sat on the edge of the bed and in the chair quite a bit too.
He did say, "this place is like a dungeon during the night." I wish I could be there for him at night, but I just can't. I am surprised at how tired I am in the evening. I really thought I could take it better than this. People are always talking about how exhausting it is to have a loved one in the hospital. Now I know what they mean. Especially one as sick as Brock is. It's not just visiting, it's helping in any way possible to get him comfortable or keep him comfortable. Brock will not be comfortable until he is home.
It's a sad thing, but we still haven't had time to pray together. I'm still counting on you holding up that end for us right now.
A lot of you have sent verses for us. We really appreciate that and will be going over all the comments and emails when he is home. Still no idea at all when that might be. Originally the surgeon told us 10 to 11 days in the hospital. If that is still the case, he could be home before the weekend is over.
Oh, I almost forgot. The pathologist friend was in and said that he and the surgeon just weren't able to connect yesterday on the final report on the cancer (chemo or no chemo?), so hopefully we will hear tomorrow. That is a step we will take when we come to it.
Remember, God gets the Glory!!
Love you and bless you,
Chris
Monday, April 28, 2008
Day Four Monday Evening April 28
Hello to all,
He's lookin' good, huh? He's still smiling, praising God for every wonderful day!
I'm sure a lot of you are keeping up with this blog on a daily basis. I am thankful I started it because there just isn't time to make phone calls. It won't be long and Brock will be on the phone himself. The tube in his nose is aggravating his throat somewhat, so he really isn't talking a lot.
This morning he called me a little past 7 am. The surgeon had been in already. He seemed pleased with Brock's progress. He said again that the margins were all good and wide and the lymph nodes in the area of the tumor were cancer free. But, we still haven't gotten the pathologists report. The pathologist was in today also. He said they were having a meeting later in the day about whether or not Brock should have chemo. Maybe tomorrow we will hear. We hope so.
Today Brock ate a lime popsicle. It was so good to see him eat something. Still no luck on the digestive tract. Maybe before I see him tomorrow. They aren't acting real concerned yet, but the nurses are very hard to read. Just have to pray for the best.
The catheter came out today. That was sure a blessing! Brock never complained about it, but I know that was very hard on him. They took the IV out of his neck and put it on the back of his right hand. The doctor said to take the port out of his neck, but they hadn't done it yet when I left. Hopefully it will be gone by the time I see him in the morning. Every tube and wire that comes off, makes life easier for him. They took the dressing off his incision today. I guess it is 8 to 10 inches long. It's stapled. It didn't look bad at all. They left the bandage off so it could get some air.
Brock took 5 walks today. The doctor wants him out of bed more than in it during the day. I am now getting him ready for his walks. Helping him out of bed, taking the oxygen off, unhooking and capping off the NG tube, unplugging everything and making sure his drains and feeding tube and IV are all tangle free. It's a major deal getting him out of the room and back in the chair and then into bed again. Then he sleeps awhile and the whole thing starts over again. Needless to say, I was quite exhausted this evening. It's starting to cross my mind how nice it will be to have him home. And of course when he gets home he'll have even less things attached. :)
I am still not saying we are out of the woods yet, but the countdown is on. We started with 5 to 7 critical days and now we are on 1 to 3. His blood pressure is under better control now and his blood sugar is staying within range. His lungs are clear.
We feel that without you and all your prayers, we couldn't have come this far. We treasure you and thank each and every one of you.
Brock is still in control of the visiting and hasn't told me he's ready yet, so hang in there with us.
We need you.
Our God is an AWESOME God!
Sleep well,
Love to all,
Chris
Sunday, April 27, 2008
Day Three Sunday Evening April 27
Hello from Brock!!
We hope everyone had a blessed Sunday and enjoyed their church service, no matter where that might have been.
As you can see, he is still smiling and has a thumbs up!
We had a busy day at the hospital. They removed the epidural and replaced it with self-administered pain meds. He still doesn't seem to be in a huge amount of pain, just more uncomfortable than anything. We had 2 different nurses ask him if he has a high pain tolerance. I know that he does. Thank the Lord.
They took the IV out of his hand and put it into a port in his neck that was placed there during surgery. This sounds worse than it is. Brock doesn't even feel it. They say an IV is only good for about 3 days in the same place and then it begins to get sore.
He still has the tube in his nose which keeps the stomach empty. The immediate prayer concern is that his bowels begin to work. They should at any time now. When they do, he should get the nose tube out (NG..for the medically knowledgeable) I know many of you are chuckling now, because you know Brock well and his bowels have never been a problem for him. Maybe his bowels have been a problem for me...but not for him. OK, now I'm laughing.
He took 3 walks throughout the day. Each one longer. He is steady on his feet. He does seem quite exhausted from the effort. The doctor said he could have a popsicle or two, but so far I haven't been able to talk him into it.
He had a few minor things today, a little bit of fever, a little bit of high blood pressure. The doctor said that was caused by too much fluids, so they gave him a diuretic to counter act. It's literally one thing after another. Brock said, "We haven't even had time to give praise." I had fully intended to read some scripture for him today in our quiet time. I had some good verses picked out, but there was no time. Well, one thing for sure, we will have plenty of time in the coming weeks.
I am still counting on the prayers from all of you. We started at 5 to 7 critical days, so now we should be at 2 to 4 more critical days.
So as you all start your Monday morning, we hope you have a wonderful week. Every day is one more day closer to having Brock home with me.
Prayer concerns:
That Brock's digestive system begins to work.
That the pathologist report comes back tomorrow so we know where we stand with cancer.
That Brock would have physical comfort.
Our God is an AWESOME God!
Love to all,
Chris
Saturday, April 26, 2008
Day Two Saturday Evening April 26
Well, it's now been 48 hours since the surgery was finished.
When I last left you, I was heading back to the hospital for an evening visit. I ended up staying almost 4 hours. Brock waited a little too long to ask for more pain medication and was having quite a bit of pain. He just could not get comfortable. The bed seems too small to me. He is 6' 1", I don't know what really tall guys do.
Evening is not Brock's best time even under perfect circumstances, so I have to realize he will always feel better in the mornings.
Today the nurse told us that today or tomorrow will be his worst day.
Since the surgeon told us the next 5 to 7 days are critical, I'm not really going to be comfortable till next Thursday, which is the National Day of Prayer.
So, there is not really a lot to report. He sleeps on and off through the day, sits in a chair 2 or 3 times a day.
Tomorrow I think the epidural will come out, so things will change a bit. Possibly he will start taking a few steps.
I have a message to you all from Brock. "God Bless" and hopefully in a few more days he will be up to seeing some of you.
Keep praying for his healing. Not only day by day, but hour by hour.
Brock hasn't heard his favorite song now for 3 days, so this is for him.
Our God is an AWESOME God! He reigns from Heaven above, with wisdom, power and love. Our God is an AWESOME God!
Love to all,
Chris
When I last left you, I was heading back to the hospital for an evening visit. I ended up staying almost 4 hours. Brock waited a little too long to ask for more pain medication and was having quite a bit of pain. He just could not get comfortable. The bed seems too small to me. He is 6' 1", I don't know what really tall guys do.
Evening is not Brock's best time even under perfect circumstances, so I have to realize he will always feel better in the mornings.
Today the nurse told us that today or tomorrow will be his worst day.
Since the surgeon told us the next 5 to 7 days are critical, I'm not really going to be comfortable till next Thursday, which is the National Day of Prayer.
So, there is not really a lot to report. He sleeps on and off through the day, sits in a chair 2 or 3 times a day.
Tomorrow I think the epidural will come out, so things will change a bit. Possibly he will start taking a few steps.
I have a message to you all from Brock. "God Bless" and hopefully in a few more days he will be up to seeing some of you.
Keep praying for his healing. Not only day by day, but hour by hour.
Brock hasn't heard his favorite song now for 3 days, so this is for him.
Our God is an AWESOME God! He reigns from Heaven above, with wisdom, power and love. Our God is an AWESOME God!
Love to all,
Chris
Friday, April 25, 2008
Day One Friday Evening April 25
Hello to all and welcome to our church family that might be reading this blog. I saw the weekly email and noticed that this blog address has been posted. Thanks for putting it out there. It sure is easier than a lot of phone calls. Brock is the phone person in our family and I have his phone, so he's out of luck for a few more days at least.
I've seen Brock twice today and was there when they moved him from ICU to his room. He does have a lot of tubes and machines connected to him. I didn't really talk to him about visitors yet. We did get a good update from the nurse on what to expect. The pain most probably will get worse before it gets better as they will stop the epidural on Sunday. It is blocking a lot of the pain.
He sat in a chair for an hour and stood up to get in a wheelchair to go to his new room. He was somewhat tired after that.
He is also having his first meal through the feeding tube. It looks like baby formula and drips in very slowly like an IV.
His surgeon is off this weekend, but other doctors will check in on him.
We should have the pathologists report soon. That will be key on the decision whether or not he will need chemo.
Just about all the nurses we've seen so far ask where we are from. They told us people come from all over for this Whipple surgery. They have called it a "doozy" of a surgery and "when you have a surgery like this". When I see Brock (he looks so good) I can hardly believe that his body has gone through such a traumatic episode.
Well, I think I'll go back to the hospital and see my husband!
Praise the Lord!
If you would like some direct prayer requests, it would be....
That Brock continues to improve each hour
That the pain is not more than he can bear
That his spirits stay high
Remember the next 5 days are critical.
Our God is an AWESOME God!
Love to all!
Chris
I've seen Brock twice today and was there when they moved him from ICU to his room. He does have a lot of tubes and machines connected to him. I didn't really talk to him about visitors yet. We did get a good update from the nurse on what to expect. The pain most probably will get worse before it gets better as they will stop the epidural on Sunday. It is blocking a lot of the pain.
He sat in a chair for an hour and stood up to get in a wheelchair to go to his new room. He was somewhat tired after that.
He is also having his first meal through the feeding tube. It looks like baby formula and drips in very slowly like an IV.
His surgeon is off this weekend, but other doctors will check in on him.
We should have the pathologists report soon. That will be key on the decision whether or not he will need chemo.
Just about all the nurses we've seen so far ask where we are from. They told us people come from all over for this Whipple surgery. They have called it a "doozy" of a surgery and "when you have a surgery like this". When I see Brock (he looks so good) I can hardly believe that his body has gone through such a traumatic episode.
Well, I think I'll go back to the hospital and see my husband!
Praise the Lord!
If you would like some direct prayer requests, it would be....
That Brock continues to improve each hour
That the pain is not more than he can bear
That his spirits stay high
Remember the next 5 days are critical.
Our God is an AWESOME God!
Love to all!
Chris
One more thing.....
I will let you know through this blog about visiting. I need to get the OK from Brock that he is ready. Thanks so much.
Chris
Chris
The Day After
Good Morning to all!
I just talked to the hospital and Brock did very well during the night. His vitals have been good and his pain is being controlled. Later today they will feed him through his feeding tube that is surgically implanted. They will also get him up to sit in a chair. I asked if he is still upbeat and the nurse said yes, but we'll see how that goes after we get him up.
The best news is...the surgeon had already made his rounds and the nurse said he was very pleased. So pleased in fact, that Brock will be going to a room later today! I can hardly believe it! I knew he looked good yesterday when I saw him at 5:30 pm. The only funny thing he said was, "I need my tennis shoes on."
I'll leave it here and write more later as time allows.
Our God is an AWESOME God!
Love to all,
Chris
I just talked to the hospital and Brock did very well during the night. His vitals have been good and his pain is being controlled. Later today they will feed him through his feeding tube that is surgically implanted. They will also get him up to sit in a chair. I asked if he is still upbeat and the nurse said yes, but we'll see how that goes after we get him up.
The best news is...the surgeon had already made his rounds and the nurse said he was very pleased. So pleased in fact, that Brock will be going to a room later today! I can hardly believe it! I knew he looked good yesterday when I saw him at 5:30 pm. The only funny thing he said was, "I need my tennis shoes on."
I'll leave it here and write more later as time allows.
Our God is an AWESOME God!
Love to all,
Chris
Thursday, April 24, 2008
Successful Surgery !!!
Praise the Lord !!
The surgery was a complete success. Almost 7 hours. Four of us are waiting now to see Brock in the ICU. The doctor said he will be fully awake and no tube in his throat. Brock was concerned about that.
The doctor said the margins all around the tumor were all negative, so he feels confident they removed all cancer. He said the tumor was contained and there were no visible signs that it spread.
I hope I am the one to tell Brock, although I'm sure he is pestering the nurses for information as we speak.
The doctor said that we have all been worried, sitting on the edge of our seats all day, but now is the time to worry. That the next 7 days are critical. He said, "In the OR, I'm in control and now it's out of my hands."
Some possible complications could be pneumonia, heart attack, or stroke caused by blood clots. So please continue to keep Brock in your prayers.
It is all of you that brought us to this point. OK, yes, we are all breathing normally now.
More later.
Love to all!
Most of all...
Our God is an AWESOME God!
Chris
The surgery was a complete success. Almost 7 hours. Four of us are waiting now to see Brock in the ICU. The doctor said he will be fully awake and no tube in his throat. Brock was concerned about that.
The doctor said the margins all around the tumor were all negative, so he feels confident they removed all cancer. He said the tumor was contained and there were no visible signs that it spread.
I hope I am the one to tell Brock, although I'm sure he is pestering the nurses for information as we speak.
The doctor said that we have all been worried, sitting on the edge of our seats all day, but now is the time to worry. That the next 7 days are critical. He said, "In the OR, I'm in control and now it's out of my hands."
Some possible complications could be pneumonia, heart attack, or stroke caused by blood clots. So please continue to keep Brock in your prayers.
It is all of you that brought us to this point. OK, yes, we are all breathing normally now.
More later.
Love to all!
Most of all...
Our God is an AWESOME God!
Chris
1:30 pm update!
Hello again!
The update nurse came through at 1:30 pm. She said the tumor has been removed and they are starting to put everything back together. It should be several more hours.
The breath is coming easier.
Just now Brock's discipleship friend, the pathologist here at Parkview, came out and said the tumor came right out and he is confident. He was smiling, and so am I!
More after 3:00 pm.
Keep praying!!
Our God is an AWESOME God!
Love to all,
Chris
The update nurse came through at 1:30 pm. She said the tumor has been removed and they are starting to put everything back together. It should be several more hours.
The breath is coming easier.
Just now Brock's discipleship friend, the pathologist here at Parkview, came out and said the tumor came right out and he is confident. He was smiling, and so am I!
More after 3:00 pm.
Keep praying!!
Our God is an AWESOME God!
Love to all,
Chris
Ongoing Surgery
Hello to all!
So far, so good. The surgery started at 9:15. It is now 12:35. We were updated at 10:30 and also noon and things are going well, and as expected. Praise the Lord!
The surgeon had said 2 critical points were when he opened, and at the 2 hour point. We made it through both of those and are not breathing a sigh of relief, but are at least now breathing.
I have plenty of support here with me. Brenda, Brock's sister and her daughter, our niece Rachel, my daughter Jill, sister Paula and my father.
I figure we are halfway through so keep the prayers coming and I will update you as I am updated.
Brock slept well last night. He felt really good this morning.
Our God is an AWESOME God!
Love to all,
Chris
So far, so good. The surgery started at 9:15. It is now 12:35. We were updated at 10:30 and also noon and things are going well, and as expected. Praise the Lord!
The surgeon had said 2 critical points were when he opened, and at the 2 hour point. We made it through both of those and are not breathing a sigh of relief, but are at least now breathing.
I have plenty of support here with me. Brenda, Brock's sister and her daughter, our niece Rachel, my daughter Jill, sister Paula and my father.
I figure we are halfway through so keep the prayers coming and I will update you as I am updated.
Brock slept well last night. He felt really good this morning.
Our God is an AWESOME God!
Love to all,
Chris
Wednesday, April 23, 2008
Last blog before surgery
Just a quick update before the big day.
We were busy all day, took our grandson to school and then to Lowe's with our granddaughter. She found Dora gardening gloves and tools, so of course they came home with us. Scott turned over the garden for Brock and they planted tomatoes.
We had some visitors, and lots of phone calls.
The cleanse went well and wasn't bad at all. The surgeons office even called to make sure he drank his magnesium citrate. They said he is scheduled for 6 hours of surgery, more if the doctor needs it.
Our grandson won an award at pre school today for memorizing his bible verse. It went like this, "Jesus said He will always be there for us." It was such an unexpected blessing to have him blurt that out. Brock felt God was comforting him through a 4 year old. He was just beside himself. He attends an awesome Christian school and has an awesome teacher!
Brock's prayer concern for tomorrow is that "My wife Chris, 4 kids, Gary, Jill, Scott, and Tracy and 2 grandkids, Timothy and Kimberly and the rest of the immediate family be blessed through this." He says we will have it worse than he will as he'll be napping all afternoon and probably into the night. :)
I probably don't really need to voice my prayer concerns, but will anyway.
That there are no surprises as the doctor begins his surgery.
That he will be able to complete the surgery as planned.
That Brock suffers minimal pain.
Remember the magic hour is 8:30 am. I'll try to get the word out as soon as I possibly can through phone calls and this blog.
God has still blessed us with a peace we really don't understand and can't explain as we sit here 12 hours before surgery. To God be the Glory!
God Bless you all for caring for us.
Our God is an AWESOME God!
Chris
We were busy all day, took our grandson to school and then to Lowe's with our granddaughter. She found Dora gardening gloves and tools, so of course they came home with us. Scott turned over the garden for Brock and they planted tomatoes.
We had some visitors, and lots of phone calls.
The cleanse went well and wasn't bad at all. The surgeons office even called to make sure he drank his magnesium citrate. They said he is scheduled for 6 hours of surgery, more if the doctor needs it.
Our grandson won an award at pre school today for memorizing his bible verse. It went like this, "Jesus said He will always be there for us." It was such an unexpected blessing to have him blurt that out. Brock felt God was comforting him through a 4 year old. He was just beside himself. He attends an awesome Christian school and has an awesome teacher!
Brock's prayer concern for tomorrow is that "My wife Chris, 4 kids, Gary, Jill, Scott, and Tracy and 2 grandkids, Timothy and Kimberly and the rest of the immediate family be blessed through this." He says we will have it worse than he will as he'll be napping all afternoon and probably into the night. :)
I probably don't really need to voice my prayer concerns, but will anyway.
That there are no surprises as the doctor begins his surgery.
That he will be able to complete the surgery as planned.
That Brock suffers minimal pain.
Remember the magic hour is 8:30 am. I'll try to get the word out as soon as I possibly can through phone calls and this blog.
God has still blessed us with a peace we really don't understand and can't explain as we sit here 12 hours before surgery. To God be the Glory!
God Bless you all for caring for us.
Our God is an AWESOME God!
Chris
Tuesday, April 22, 2008
Last work day - Tuesday April 22
Hello to all of our caring friends,
I hadn’t planned to write today, but feel that I need to put down on paper a feeling that came over me today. Suddenly, in an instant, as I was coming down the stairs this morning, my fear was washed away. I almost felt joy in my heart. The only way I can explain it is, either Brock’s wonderful attitude has finally rubbed off on me, or all the prayers being said for me got through and the Lord Himself gave me peace. Not that I’m not nervous about this whole thing, I wouldn’t be human if I wasn’t. It’s just a feeling inside.
The Scripture coming our way is overwhelming. One after another, Brock will say,
“Oh, we need to put that one on the blog.” Although I can’t put them all on the blog, some key verses that have been meaningful to us are the following.
Jeremiah 29:11
For I know the plans I have for you,” declares the Lord, “plans to prosper you and not to harm you, plans to give you hope and a future."
Jeremiah 33:3
Call to me and I will answer you and tell you great and unsearchable things you do not know.
One co-worker sent the following which Brock enjoyed.
He is the healer of all of my diseases, and by his stripes I am healed.
You can only see the dust when the devil takes off.
Brock finished his last day at work, for how long, we just don’t know. We hope and pray it is the shortest time possible.
Brock wants to thank fellow workers at Brotherhood. You have all been a tremendous blessing to him over the last few weeks. The words of encouragement, cards, calls, prayers and support from co-workers and the agent force has been a big part of what God is doing for Brock and the whole family. Many of you have put Brock on the prayer list at your church and we realize this covers almost this entire country. Overwhelming just doesn’t cover it!
And also family, friends, neighbors, church family and even those of you that we have never met and don’t even know, we thank you from the bottom of our hearts.
One family member told me, “I wake up during the night and can only think, “Brock.” As that thought turns to a prayer we appreciate it.
Our Father, Who Art In Heaven, Hallowed Be Thy Name, Thy Kingdom Come, Thy Will Be Done…….
We sure hope you enjoy the song added to our blog. Thanks, Jill; your technical knowledge cannot be equaled.
Tomorrow Brock will start his cleanse, I have the magazines ready. :)
I’ll try to get with you again before Thursday.
Until then…
Our God is an AWESOME God!
Chris
I hadn’t planned to write today, but feel that I need to put down on paper a feeling that came over me today. Suddenly, in an instant, as I was coming down the stairs this morning, my fear was washed away. I almost felt joy in my heart. The only way I can explain it is, either Brock’s wonderful attitude has finally rubbed off on me, or all the prayers being said for me got through and the Lord Himself gave me peace. Not that I’m not nervous about this whole thing, I wouldn’t be human if I wasn’t. It’s just a feeling inside.
The Scripture coming our way is overwhelming. One after another, Brock will say,
“Oh, we need to put that one on the blog.” Although I can’t put them all on the blog, some key verses that have been meaningful to us are the following.
Jeremiah 29:11
For I know the plans I have for you,” declares the Lord, “plans to prosper you and not to harm you, plans to give you hope and a future."
Jeremiah 33:3
Call to me and I will answer you and tell you great and unsearchable things you do not know.
One co-worker sent the following which Brock enjoyed.
He is the healer of all of my diseases, and by his stripes I am healed.
You can only see the dust when the devil takes off.
Brock finished his last day at work, for how long, we just don’t know. We hope and pray it is the shortest time possible.
Brock wants to thank fellow workers at Brotherhood. You have all been a tremendous blessing to him over the last few weeks. The words of encouragement, cards, calls, prayers and support from co-workers and the agent force has been a big part of what God is doing for Brock and the whole family. Many of you have put Brock on the prayer list at your church and we realize this covers almost this entire country. Overwhelming just doesn’t cover it!
And also family, friends, neighbors, church family and even those of you that we have never met and don’t even know, we thank you from the bottom of our hearts.
One family member told me, “I wake up during the night and can only think, “Brock.” As that thought turns to a prayer we appreciate it.
Our Father, Who Art In Heaven, Hallowed Be Thy Name, Thy Kingdom Come, Thy Will Be Done…….
We sure hope you enjoy the song added to our blog. Thanks, Jill; your technical knowledge cannot be equaled.
Tomorrow Brock will start his cleanse, I have the magazines ready. :)
I’ll try to get with you again before Thursday.
Until then…
Our God is an AWESOME God!
Chris
Sunday, April 20, 2008
The Wait April 17 thru April 20
Hello to family, friends, neighbors, co-workers and everyone out there that might be reading this blog. If you are reading it, it must mean you care and we care for you.
Last I wrote was Wednesday and here it is Sunday already. I have never in my life wanted time to fly as much as now, but at the same time I want it to stand still.
Brock worked last Thursday and Friday. He feels so blessed when he is at the office. There are so many people there with a care givers heart. He appreciates so much each and every one of you.
We knew it was going to be a busy weekend and it was!
We started our Saturday with Baptism. Brock was brought up in the church, but somehow was just never baptized. It was important to him to have this outward sign of his inward commitment to Jesus Christ our Lord. I joined him, as well as Brock's son Scott, my daughter, Jill and her husband Larry. Paster Bob performed this ceremony for us.
Later in the day we had a family wedding. It is a young Christian couple and very refreshing to share in their special day. We enjoyed being with family.
On Sunday the church service was very special. We had communion, a meaningful sermon and some of our favorite songs.
A few hours later we attended the birthday party of our grandkids turning 4 and 5. It's still another month for one of them, but since Grandpa won't feel much like a party, they decided they would share their day with each other. It's heartwarming watching their joy, especially during the "Happy Birthday" song. They are so sweet and very loving.
A friend of Brock's, Ken Nogan, from Pittsburgh stopped by to visit on his way to Chicago late in the afternoon. He brought his guitar and blessed us with some songs, at least one that he had written himself. Two of the songs were based on the following scripture:
Ephesians 3:20-21 Now to him who is able to do immeasurably more than all we ask or imagine, according to his power that is at work within us, to him be glory in the church and in Christ Jesus throughout all generations, forever and ever! Amen.
Psalms 46 1-3 God is our refuge and strength, an ever-present help in trouble. Therefore we will not fear, though the earth give way and the mountains fall into the heart of the sea, though it's waters roar and foam and the mountains quake with their surging. verse 10 Be still , and know that I am God; I will be exhaulted among the nations, I will be exhaulted in the earth.
Thanks Ken, for coming all this way for us, for the comfort and the special prayer.
Brock is still feeling exceptionally well. His jaundice is less than minimal, I would say he's not jaundice at all. That is an answer to prayer. He says he will feel silly walking in the hospital feeling as good as he does.
God Bless each and every one of you.
And don't forget...
Our God is an AWESOME God!
Chris
Last I wrote was Wednesday and here it is Sunday already. I have never in my life wanted time to fly as much as now, but at the same time I want it to stand still.
Brock worked last Thursday and Friday. He feels so blessed when he is at the office. There are so many people there with a care givers heart. He appreciates so much each and every one of you.
We knew it was going to be a busy weekend and it was!
We started our Saturday with Baptism. Brock was brought up in the church, but somehow was just never baptized. It was important to him to have this outward sign of his inward commitment to Jesus Christ our Lord. I joined him, as well as Brock's son Scott, my daughter, Jill and her husband Larry. Paster Bob performed this ceremony for us.
Later in the day we had a family wedding. It is a young Christian couple and very refreshing to share in their special day. We enjoyed being with family.
On Sunday the church service was very special. We had communion, a meaningful sermon and some of our favorite songs.
A few hours later we attended the birthday party of our grandkids turning 4 and 5. It's still another month for one of them, but since Grandpa won't feel much like a party, they decided they would share their day with each other. It's heartwarming watching their joy, especially during the "Happy Birthday" song. They are so sweet and very loving.
A friend of Brock's, Ken Nogan, from Pittsburgh stopped by to visit on his way to Chicago late in the afternoon. He brought his guitar and blessed us with some songs, at least one that he had written himself. Two of the songs were based on the following scripture:
Ephesians 3:20-21 Now to him who is able to do immeasurably more than all we ask or imagine, according to his power that is at work within us, to him be glory in the church and in Christ Jesus throughout all generations, forever and ever! Amen.
Psalms 46 1-3 God is our refuge and strength, an ever-present help in trouble. Therefore we will not fear, though the earth give way and the mountains fall into the heart of the sea, though it's waters roar and foam and the mountains quake with their surging. verse 10 Be still , and know that I am God; I will be exhaulted among the nations, I will be exhaulted in the earth.
Thanks Ken, for coming all this way for us, for the comfort and the special prayer.
Brock is still feeling exceptionally well. His jaundice is less than minimal, I would say he's not jaundice at all. That is an answer to prayer. He says he will feel silly walking in the hospital feeling as good as he does.
God Bless each and every one of you.
And don't forget...
Our God is an AWESOME God!
Chris
Wednesday, April 16, 2008
Wednesday April 16
Good Morning All!
This is the day that the LORD has made, let us be glad and rejoice in it!
Psalm 118:24
This has been my verse for quite some time, now it is more important than ever.
It seems like spring has sprung. We had a beautiful day here in Fort Wayne yesterday. The sky was a deep blue and the sun was bright. I hope this weather lifts everyone’s spirits a bit.
Today should be even better. Sunny with a high of 70. Brock and I have been thankful that it’s not the middle of winter. Like my daughter said yesterday as we were digging the mower out of the garage, “People in warm climates must have an easy life.” Lots of people in Indiana wonder “Why do we live here?”
I didn’t plan on writing until the surgery a week from tomorrow, but I know more people are finding out about his blog so I wanted to welcome anyone new.
Brock is working every day. We know there have been a lot of prayers that his jaundice stays at a minimum. Well, it has been very minimal. The best it’s been since March 22 when we realized his eyes had that unmistakable yellow tinge. This is a huge blessing. He’s able to eat more and is maintaining his weight. The doctors said no diet restrictions, but we have found low fat is the way to go.
Yesterday we had lunch with our pastor and his wife. This is the man that married us going on 14 years ago. We had a simple, beautiful wedding at Emmanuel Community Church.
We feel a lot of comfort in his words of wisdom and his wife's calm demeanor brings me a sense of peace. Thanks, Bob and Kathy!
This morning Brock was singing in the shower. In all the years I've known him, I've never heard him sing in the shower. Wow!
The 4 main things to pray for right now would be...
1. That Brock would maintain his health to keep strong for the surgery.
2. That the surgery can be completed as planned.
3. That the cancer has not spread past the ampulla.
4. That his immediate family feel God's presence and have peace of mind.
As always, we feel your prayers. We are overwhelmed by your concern and love.
Until the next time...We love you all!
Our God is an AWESOME God!
Chris
This is the day that the LORD has made, let us be glad and rejoice in it!
Psalm 118:24
This has been my verse for quite some time, now it is more important than ever.
It seems like spring has sprung. We had a beautiful day here in Fort Wayne yesterday. The sky was a deep blue and the sun was bright. I hope this weather lifts everyone’s spirits a bit.
Today should be even better. Sunny with a high of 70. Brock and I have been thankful that it’s not the middle of winter. Like my daughter said yesterday as we were digging the mower out of the garage, “People in warm climates must have an easy life.” Lots of people in Indiana wonder “Why do we live here?”
I didn’t plan on writing until the surgery a week from tomorrow, but I know more people are finding out about his blog so I wanted to welcome anyone new.
Brock is working every day. We know there have been a lot of prayers that his jaundice stays at a minimum. Well, it has been very minimal. The best it’s been since March 22 when we realized his eyes had that unmistakable yellow tinge. This is a huge blessing. He’s able to eat more and is maintaining his weight. The doctors said no diet restrictions, but we have found low fat is the way to go.
Yesterday we had lunch with our pastor and his wife. This is the man that married us going on 14 years ago. We had a simple, beautiful wedding at Emmanuel Community Church.
We feel a lot of comfort in his words of wisdom and his wife's calm demeanor brings me a sense of peace. Thanks, Bob and Kathy!
This morning Brock was singing in the shower. In all the years I've known him, I've never heard him sing in the shower. Wow!
The 4 main things to pray for right now would be...
1. That Brock would maintain his health to keep strong for the surgery.
2. That the surgery can be completed as planned.
3. That the cancer has not spread past the ampulla.
4. That his immediate family feel God's presence and have peace of mind.
As always, we feel your prayers. We are overwhelmed by your concern and love.
Until the next time...We love you all!
Our God is an AWESOME God!
Chris
Monday, April 14, 2008
Chapter 6 Wed April 9 to today April 14
Our appointment with the surgeon was for 10:00. Always up early, we stayed busy that morning, it seems like we ran around doing errands.
We were very excited and upbeat driving over and waiting in the office. We're hoping the surgery would be in a few days and hardly any of our plans for the spring and summer would change.
When the surgeon sat down, everything became beyond serious. This is a no nonsense doctor, he doesn't mince words, he tells it like it is.
He told us there are 4 types of cancer in this area of the body. Pancreas, duodenum, bile duct and ampullary. He told Brock, "You have the best one of the 4." He told us the chances for long term cure are 40 to 50%. He also said Brock would probably need chemo or radiation, or both. We are not scared of chemo after watching my stepmom go through it. At 85 years old and 90 pounds she did very well. It's tolerable. He began to explain the Whipple Procedure. I have no idea why they call it a procedure. It is surgery, a very serious surgery. I knew about it, but never thought after the diagnosis the day before that Brock would need it. I was way wrong.
He also told us straight out, 3 things could happen.
1. He will go in, see that the cancer has spread. He would then close.
2. He will go in, and at the 2 hour period, he will be at a critical point where he will have to work around 2 main blood vessels. If that doesn't go well, he would then close.
3. He will complete the surgery, which would be 6 hours.
After surgery, he will be in intensive care for 3 days and will be hospitalized for 10 days.
The surgeon said, at the 6 week point after the day of surgery he will turn a corner and start getting better.
So now we know where we stand, and so do you.
It's hard to take this all in, I know. We were stunned and a bit speechless.
The surgery was set for May 1. Three weeks away. A long time to wait, but in a way we were glad for the break. Maybe to have a bit of normalcy for a little while.
That was Wed. and on Sat. (2 days ago) Brock didn't feel good and began running a fever. The EUS doctor seemed to anticipate it because he gave us a prescription and said if he starts a fever, to begin taking it immediately. So we started the pills and by morning he was better and Sunday was a really great day.
Today we had another surprise. A call from the surgeon saying they had a cancellation for April 24 and could Brock come in for surgery that day? We were SO stunned! Brock wanted to say, "Well, let me check my calendar, I think I have a meeting that afternoon." We laughed so hard at that.
I pray the person who was scheduled is ok. I don't like thinking about it.
So we know where we stand and now, so do you.
A friend of Brock's from work blessed him with this article today from Tony Snow, the former Fox News correspondent and press secretary for President Bush. His words are a real encouragement to Brock and we hope you enjoy it.
http://www.christianitytoday.com/ct/article_print.html?id=47315
You will hear from me periodically before the surgery. Right now, 8 hours after hearing the change in plans, we are just now starting to calm down, and catch our breath.
We thank you all from the bottom of our hearts for your prayers and love.
We love you all!
Feel free to call or email or leave messages on this blog. We welcome them.
Our God is an AWESOME God!!
Chris
We were very excited and upbeat driving over and waiting in the office. We're hoping the surgery would be in a few days and hardly any of our plans for the spring and summer would change.
When the surgeon sat down, everything became beyond serious. This is a no nonsense doctor, he doesn't mince words, he tells it like it is.
He told us there are 4 types of cancer in this area of the body. Pancreas, duodenum, bile duct and ampullary. He told Brock, "You have the best one of the 4." He told us the chances for long term cure are 40 to 50%. He also said Brock would probably need chemo or radiation, or both. We are not scared of chemo after watching my stepmom go through it. At 85 years old and 90 pounds she did very well. It's tolerable. He began to explain the Whipple Procedure. I have no idea why they call it a procedure. It is surgery, a very serious surgery. I knew about it, but never thought after the diagnosis the day before that Brock would need it. I was way wrong.
He also told us straight out, 3 things could happen.
1. He will go in, see that the cancer has spread. He would then close.
2. He will go in, and at the 2 hour period, he will be at a critical point where he will have to work around 2 main blood vessels. If that doesn't go well, he would then close.
3. He will complete the surgery, which would be 6 hours.
After surgery, he will be in intensive care for 3 days and will be hospitalized for 10 days.
The surgeon said, at the 6 week point after the day of surgery he will turn a corner and start getting better.
So now we know where we stand, and so do you.
It's hard to take this all in, I know. We were stunned and a bit speechless.
The surgery was set for May 1. Three weeks away. A long time to wait, but in a way we were glad for the break. Maybe to have a bit of normalcy for a little while.
That was Wed. and on Sat. (2 days ago) Brock didn't feel good and began running a fever. The EUS doctor seemed to anticipate it because he gave us a prescription and said if he starts a fever, to begin taking it immediately. So we started the pills and by morning he was better and Sunday was a really great day.
Today we had another surprise. A call from the surgeon saying they had a cancellation for April 24 and could Brock come in for surgery that day? We were SO stunned! Brock wanted to say, "Well, let me check my calendar, I think I have a meeting that afternoon." We laughed so hard at that.
I pray the person who was scheduled is ok. I don't like thinking about it.
So we know where we stand and now, so do you.
A friend of Brock's from work blessed him with this article today from Tony Snow, the former Fox News correspondent and press secretary for President Bush. His words are a real encouragement to Brock and we hope you enjoy it.
http://www.christianitytoday.com/ct/article_print.html?id=47315
You will hear from me periodically before the surgery. Right now, 8 hours after hearing the change in plans, we are just now starting to calm down, and catch our breath.
We thank you all from the bottom of our hearts for your prayers and love.
We love you all!
Feel free to call or email or leave messages on this blog. We welcome them.
Our God is an AWESOME God!!
Chris
Sunday, April 13, 2008
Chapter 5 Wed. April 2 thru Tues. April 8
On my last blog I did omit one important detail. That is the results of the biopsy. We didn't hear anything when we left the hospital after the ERCP procedure on Wed. April 2. We also did not hear anything on Thurs. until we badgered the nurse enough to tell us. The first phone call to her was rather vague. "I haven't seen the report", the next phone call was "I sent the report on to the other doctors". I'm not even sure at this point if we called again or she just broke down and told us the tumor was cancer. No further details.
This was the first time Brock felt something come over him. He felt God's presence and blessing. The song "Our God is an Awesome God " popped in his head and a peace that he never felt before in his life washed over him. Whatever God has in store is fine with him and he knows God is with him and in control.
On Sunday evening April 6, we had just gotten in bed when one of the men in his Monday morning discipleship group called. Brock had been sending emails to keep them informed. This man is a Pathologist at Parkview. Brock gave him a run down of where things stand and he asked if he could see what he could do to keep us in Fort Wayne for the endoscopic ultra sound. Sure enough on Monday we received a call the EUS doctor, here in Fort Wayne could fit us in on April 16. We were so excited to have the test here. By the time Brock got home from work, they called again and moved it up to the next day, Tuesday April 8.
Now we are ecstatic. Waiting and not knowing things have been the hardest for us.
It's amazing the people that God brings into your life. You never know who it might be or when it might happen, but God's hand sure became evident to us.
Even though we were excited to get this test, we were still apprehensive as to the outcome. We knew this would tell the tale if the cancer was confined to the tumor, or had spread to the pancreas, duodenum, and/or more.
My son-in-law and father were at the hospital with me waiting this time. I sure didn't want to be alone. I knew my son-in-law could interpret for me, from medical jargon to English. :)
We were blessed that Dr. Kim from discipleship was also there. He would be the one looking at the tissue in case more biopsy was done.
When the doctor came out, I didn't need an interpreter because the smile on his face, and his words, "Good News!" were all I needed. It's the first time I broke down crying, crying for joy! He said it is ampullary cancer with one lymph node involved that looked easy to get to. He did not see any pancreas involvement. So there we stood, the EUS doctor, the anesthesiologist, the pathologist, my family and me, grinning from ear to ear.
I know it seems weird that it would be good news to us that a simple gall stone, turned out to a very rare ampullary cancer.
We were on the phone all evening, letting everyone know that the tumor is operable and we are ready for the next step.
Which is.....an appointment the very next day with the only doctor in Fort Wayne that does surgery on this type of cancer.
We go to sleep that night singing...
Our God is an AWESOME God!
I will try to finish this leg of our journey tomorrow. A few more ups and downs before we have time to take a breath and wait for surgery.
Hope everyone had a wonderful Sunday. God Bless you all!
Chris
This was the first time Brock felt something come over him. He felt God's presence and blessing. The song "Our God is an Awesome God " popped in his head and a peace that he never felt before in his life washed over him. Whatever God has in store is fine with him and he knows God is with him and in control.
On Sunday evening April 6, we had just gotten in bed when one of the men in his Monday morning discipleship group called. Brock had been sending emails to keep them informed. This man is a Pathologist at Parkview. Brock gave him a run down of where things stand and he asked if he could see what he could do to keep us in Fort Wayne for the endoscopic ultra sound. Sure enough on Monday we received a call the EUS doctor, here in Fort Wayne could fit us in on April 16. We were so excited to have the test here. By the time Brock got home from work, they called again and moved it up to the next day, Tuesday April 8.
Now we are ecstatic. Waiting and not knowing things have been the hardest for us.
It's amazing the people that God brings into your life. You never know who it might be or when it might happen, but God's hand sure became evident to us.
Even though we were excited to get this test, we were still apprehensive as to the outcome. We knew this would tell the tale if the cancer was confined to the tumor, or had spread to the pancreas, duodenum, and/or more.
My son-in-law and father were at the hospital with me waiting this time. I sure didn't want to be alone. I knew my son-in-law could interpret for me, from medical jargon to English. :)
We were blessed that Dr. Kim from discipleship was also there. He would be the one looking at the tissue in case more biopsy was done.
When the doctor came out, I didn't need an interpreter because the smile on his face, and his words, "Good News!" were all I needed. It's the first time I broke down crying, crying for joy! He said it is ampullary cancer with one lymph node involved that looked easy to get to. He did not see any pancreas involvement. So there we stood, the EUS doctor, the anesthesiologist, the pathologist, my family and me, grinning from ear to ear.
I know it seems weird that it would be good news to us that a simple gall stone, turned out to a very rare ampullary cancer.
We were on the phone all evening, letting everyone know that the tumor is operable and we are ready for the next step.
Which is.....an appointment the very next day with the only doctor in Fort Wayne that does surgery on this type of cancer.
We go to sleep that night singing...
Our God is an AWESOME God!
I will try to finish this leg of our journey tomorrow. A few more ups and downs before we have time to take a breath and wait for surgery.
Hope everyone had a wonderful Sunday. God Bless you all!
Chris
Chapter 4 Sat. March 29 thru Wed. April 2
When I last left you, we had gotten the news that we were facing a stone in the bile duct and it should be quite easy to push it on through. So that Friday night, we breathed a sigh of relief and had a pretty normal weekend.
On Saturday we moved my Dad and stepmom, Betty, age 86 and 85 to an apartment at St. Anne's. Turned out, there were 10 of us helping that day, my siblings, nieces and nephews and even a great niece and great nephew. It was quite a day, as they hadn't really gotten packed because Betty has head some health issues the last 2 years. It was a good time to catch everyone up on Brock's saga over the past week.
My Dad and Betty moved back to Fort Wayne after 28 years of marriage, a good life traveling and living different places, most recently in Florida. One month after returning, Betty was diagnosed with colon cancer, she beat that only to have heart failure maybe 6 months later. She did very well until another cancer, lymphoma, popped up a few months ago. This time she went through 3 rounds of chemo. She bounced back each time. As it got closer to moving, Betty seemed to be failing again. After moving on Sat. March 29, Betty ended up in the hospital on Tues, evening and died on Sunday April 6.
On Monday March 31 we had a visit with the surgeon to talk about and set up the gallbladder removal surgery. We liked this doctor immediately, too, although it turned out that this was the only time we met him. The surgery was set up for Thursday, the day after the ERCP.
On Wednesday April 2 we were excited to get to the hospital and get this thing over with. It was Spring break and we were the only patient in the endoscopy area. All the nurses and techs were upbeat and happy. I even went to the operating room with Brock and stayed until the doctor began the procedure. I was alone in the waiting room. I knew I had 2 hours to wait, but was nervous enough that I couldn't read or look at the TV.
They came to get me after only 50 minutes and I thought, "Boy, that was fast!" I looked at all the nurses, etc. and no one was smiling now. It seemed odd. Brock's only comment through his fog was, "Did you get the stone? I want to make a necklace out of it." No one laughed. I looked at the nurse and said, "Did he get the stone?" and she said the doctor will be out soon. I thought "oh, oh, here it comes". And did it ever. He told us it was not a stone, it was a tumor and he did biopsy's of it and sent them to the lab. He even gave us color pictures of it.
He said the next step would be an EUS, endoscopic ultra sound, but the problem was, only one doctor in Fort Wayne does this procedure and did not have an opening until April 22 and he didn't think it was wise to wait that long, so they had contacted IU Medical Center in Indy and they would be calling us with an appointment. They called in the car on the way home. The EUS was set up for Friday April 11 in Indy. In the meantime, the gallbladder surgery was cancelled.
OK, are you confused yet?
Just wait, the confusion and appointments get crazier.
Bare with me, I promise I will make it to present day eventually. :)
Remember....
Our God is an AWESOME God!
Thank you all for your faithfullness.
Chris
On Saturday we moved my Dad and stepmom, Betty, age 86 and 85 to an apartment at St. Anne's. Turned out, there were 10 of us helping that day, my siblings, nieces and nephews and even a great niece and great nephew. It was quite a day, as they hadn't really gotten packed because Betty has head some health issues the last 2 years. It was a good time to catch everyone up on Brock's saga over the past week.
My Dad and Betty moved back to Fort Wayne after 28 years of marriage, a good life traveling and living different places, most recently in Florida. One month after returning, Betty was diagnosed with colon cancer, she beat that only to have heart failure maybe 6 months later. She did very well until another cancer, lymphoma, popped up a few months ago. This time she went through 3 rounds of chemo. She bounced back each time. As it got closer to moving, Betty seemed to be failing again. After moving on Sat. March 29, Betty ended up in the hospital on Tues, evening and died on Sunday April 6.
On Monday March 31 we had a visit with the surgeon to talk about and set up the gallbladder removal surgery. We liked this doctor immediately, too, although it turned out that this was the only time we met him. The surgery was set up for Thursday, the day after the ERCP.
On Wednesday April 2 we were excited to get to the hospital and get this thing over with. It was Spring break and we were the only patient in the endoscopy area. All the nurses and techs were upbeat and happy. I even went to the operating room with Brock and stayed until the doctor began the procedure. I was alone in the waiting room. I knew I had 2 hours to wait, but was nervous enough that I couldn't read or look at the TV.
They came to get me after only 50 minutes and I thought, "Boy, that was fast!" I looked at all the nurses, etc. and no one was smiling now. It seemed odd. Brock's only comment through his fog was, "Did you get the stone? I want to make a necklace out of it." No one laughed. I looked at the nurse and said, "Did he get the stone?" and she said the doctor will be out soon. I thought "oh, oh, here it comes". And did it ever. He told us it was not a stone, it was a tumor and he did biopsy's of it and sent them to the lab. He even gave us color pictures of it.
He said the next step would be an EUS, endoscopic ultra sound, but the problem was, only one doctor in Fort Wayne does this procedure and did not have an opening until April 22 and he didn't think it was wise to wait that long, so they had contacted IU Medical Center in Indy and they would be calling us with an appointment. They called in the car on the way home. The EUS was set up for Friday April 11 in Indy. In the meantime, the gallbladder surgery was cancelled.
OK, are you confused yet?
Just wait, the confusion and appointments get crazier.
Bare with me, I promise I will make it to present day eventually. :)
Remember....
Our God is an AWESOME God!
Thank you all for your faithfullness.
Chris
Saturday, April 12, 2008
Chapter 3 Tues March 25 thru Fri March 28
I don't remember too much about this day. I do know we went in for a blood test for hepatitis. Possibly Brock was at the office. I read up on hepatitis and soon realized I shouldn't be scouring the Internet to diagnose him myself. Over the years I have had a lot of success with figuring out things wrong with people. I've always liked medical news, shows, etc. But all this was best left to the professionals.
We have had trouble with not speculating about every step we've taken. We have to keep in mind God is in control and in the drivers seat.
I do know we were set up with a gastroentrologist. First in Auburn. Because of Spring Break, it seems all the doctor's offices were in a tizzy being short handed. They did find us one in Fort Wayne. So Tuesday was mostly phone calls setting up appointments and cancelling others. We didn't have to make any calls, this was all handled by various doctor offices. At this point we have been to 5 different doctors and in every one, the staff, the doctors have been incredible!
On Wednesday we went to see the gastroentrologist. We liked him immediately. He said to go ahead with the MRI scheduled for Thursday, but he was fairly certain it was a gall stone blocking the bile duct. He explained a procedure called an ERCP. He would use a scope to go through Brock's system until he came to the stone and poke it right through into the small intestine. But in the meantime, he ordered another blood test to see if his levels had changed at all since Monday. He also wanted to get us set up with a surgeon to have the gallbladder removed as soon as possible after the ERCP.
What a whirlwind, huh?
On Thursday we went for the MRI. Brock said it was weird and can understand why some people just cannot tolerate it.
On Friday I went and picked up his CT scan and MRI and delivered it to the gastroentrologist. A phone call later in the day confirmed that yes, it is a stone blocking the bile duct so the ERCP scheduled for Wed. April 2 was good to go.
I'll leave you here for now. Now that I'm putting this down in writing, it's no wonder we are exhausted.
Every day we thank God for all of you.
Our God is an Awesome God!
Chris
We have had trouble with not speculating about every step we've taken. We have to keep in mind God is in control and in the drivers seat.
I do know we were set up with a gastroentrologist. First in Auburn. Because of Spring Break, it seems all the doctor's offices were in a tizzy being short handed. They did find us one in Fort Wayne. So Tuesday was mostly phone calls setting up appointments and cancelling others. We didn't have to make any calls, this was all handled by various doctor offices. At this point we have been to 5 different doctors and in every one, the staff, the doctors have been incredible!
On Wednesday we went to see the gastroentrologist. We liked him immediately. He said to go ahead with the MRI scheduled for Thursday, but he was fairly certain it was a gall stone blocking the bile duct. He explained a procedure called an ERCP. He would use a scope to go through Brock's system until he came to the stone and poke it right through into the small intestine. But in the meantime, he ordered another blood test to see if his levels had changed at all since Monday. He also wanted to get us set up with a surgeon to have the gallbladder removed as soon as possible after the ERCP.
What a whirlwind, huh?
On Thursday we went for the MRI. Brock said it was weird and can understand why some people just cannot tolerate it.
On Friday I went and picked up his CT scan and MRI and delivered it to the gastroentrologist. A phone call later in the day confirmed that yes, it is a stone blocking the bile duct so the ERCP scheduled for Wed. April 2 was good to go.
I'll leave you here for now. Now that I'm putting this down in writing, it's no wonder we are exhausted.
Every day we thank God for all of you.
Our God is an Awesome God!
Chris
Friday, April 11, 2008
Chapter 2 beginning on Monday March 24
When I last left you, we were at the family doctor's office. It was a long visit as he had a PA training. We went through the whole thing with her, her thoughts were gallbladder problems and it probably had to come out.
When the doctor came in the questions were a little more intense. You could tell he was thinking while examining. So it all started off with a blood test right then and a CT scan later in the day. We were quite anxious to hear the results and when the Dr. himself called the house we were quite surprised to hear his voice. That doesn't happen very often. We really aren't what you would call "doctor" people, so it's not like we are in and out of the office. We see him about every 2 years and maybe for a bad cold or something.
He explained to us the readings on his blood tests were not good. The billirubin was 6.2 and should be 0.0 to 1.0. His ALT and AST were also high (liver enzymes) and we had to ask what that meant. He told us Brock's liver was in distress. He also said he wanted Brock to come in the next day for a blood test for hepititas. No results yet on the CT scan.
We both had the sick feeling in the pit of our stomachs. Already the questions firing through our heads....what is wrong? How could he get hepatitis? Could his liver be failing? We were scared. By now I'm watching him close because I have no idea what could happen. During the night, I can't turn off the brain, planning fund raisers for a liver transplant. Why the mind runs so far in the future is beyond me. We didn't sleep very well that night.
I'll leave you all for now. Thanks for being with us through this unexpected journey.
Our God is an Awesome God!
Chris
When the doctor came in the questions were a little more intense. You could tell he was thinking while examining. So it all started off with a blood test right then and a CT scan later in the day. We were quite anxious to hear the results and when the Dr. himself called the house we were quite surprised to hear his voice. That doesn't happen very often. We really aren't what you would call "doctor" people, so it's not like we are in and out of the office. We see him about every 2 years and maybe for a bad cold or something.
He explained to us the readings on his blood tests were not good. The billirubin was 6.2 and should be 0.0 to 1.0. His ALT and AST were also high (liver enzymes) and we had to ask what that meant. He told us Brock's liver was in distress. He also said he wanted Brock to come in the next day for a blood test for hepititas. No results yet on the CT scan.
We both had the sick feeling in the pit of our stomachs. Already the questions firing through our heads....what is wrong? How could he get hepatitis? Could his liver be failing? We were scared. By now I'm watching him close because I have no idea what could happen. During the night, I can't turn off the brain, planning fund raisers for a liver transplant. Why the mind runs so far in the future is beyond me. We didn't sleep very well that night.
I'll leave you all for now. Thanks for being with us through this unexpected journey.
Our God is an Awesome God!
Chris
Thursday, April 10, 2008
Brock Update Chapter 1
Hello to everyone!
We have decided to join the bloggers. I'm beginning to realize it will be necessary over the next few months to keep everyone close to our heart updated with the latest information on our medical journey.
I would like to start at the beginning while it is all still fresh in my mind.
Brock was on a business trip to Oklahoma. We said our phone good nights on March 12 as we always do when he is out of town. When he called in the morning he said he had felt sick during the night and felt like his dinner was still laying there. That day he and co-workers were traveling from Oklahoma City to Shawnee to Tulsa. While in Shawnee, he became chilled and just not felling well, so he went to an agents office to rest while they finished the job at hand. He was glad to get to the hotel that evening and just hit the bed.
He flew home the next day, a Friday, feeling a little better but still had flu like symptoms. Over the next 10 days he was up and down, felling ok at times and others on the couch. A couple of times he felt chilled like he was developing fever, but the highest fever I caught was only 100.4. He wasn't able to eat much and felt nauseous off and on.
On March 22 , the day before Easter, we were in the car and my stomach dropped when I realized Brock's eyes had a yellow tinge. When I told him, he, being Brock, didn't believe me. Also he was itching a lot, on his hands, arms and back and his urine was very dark yellow. My first thought was kidney problems.
Our family went to church together on Sunday and all to our house for Easter dinner. They all agreed, yes, he was indeed jaundiced. Our son-in-law is in the medical field and knew that he needed to get to the doctor as soon as possible. Brock was quiet that day and even went upstairs to take a nap.
On Monday morning, we called our family physician. Their phone lines were down and we couldn't get through, so we just drove to the office and they took us in immediately and the whirlwind began.
I'm going to stop here so you aren't overwhelmed with too many details at once. This is supposed to be a blog, not a book.
We appreciate each and every thought and prayer from each and every one of you.
Our God is an Awesome God!
Chris
We have decided to join the bloggers. I'm beginning to realize it will be necessary over the next few months to keep everyone close to our heart updated with the latest information on our medical journey.
I would like to start at the beginning while it is all still fresh in my mind.
Brock was on a business trip to Oklahoma. We said our phone good nights on March 12 as we always do when he is out of town. When he called in the morning he said he had felt sick during the night and felt like his dinner was still laying there. That day he and co-workers were traveling from Oklahoma City to Shawnee to Tulsa. While in Shawnee, he became chilled and just not felling well, so he went to an agents office to rest while they finished the job at hand. He was glad to get to the hotel that evening and just hit the bed.
He flew home the next day, a Friday, feeling a little better but still had flu like symptoms. Over the next 10 days he was up and down, felling ok at times and others on the couch. A couple of times he felt chilled like he was developing fever, but the highest fever I caught was only 100.4. He wasn't able to eat much and felt nauseous off and on.
On March 22 , the day before Easter, we were in the car and my stomach dropped when I realized Brock's eyes had a yellow tinge. When I told him, he, being Brock, didn't believe me. Also he was itching a lot, on his hands, arms and back and his urine was very dark yellow. My first thought was kidney problems.
Our family went to church together on Sunday and all to our house for Easter dinner. They all agreed, yes, he was indeed jaundiced. Our son-in-law is in the medical field and knew that he needed to get to the doctor as soon as possible. Brock was quiet that day and even went upstairs to take a nap.
On Monday morning, we called our family physician. Their phone lines were down and we couldn't get through, so we just drove to the office and they took us in immediately and the whirlwind began.
I'm going to stop here so you aren't overwhelmed with too many details at once. This is supposed to be a blog, not a book.
We appreciate each and every thought and prayer from each and every one of you.
Our God is an Awesome God!
Chris
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